I'm worried to wether my babys father/my boyfriend will be there the minute he found out the bsby doesnt sleep ask night abd stays awake for a while he says he wants to wait to move in
Oh gosh, sorry to hear this. he does not sound like a good partner or team mate in this situation. Has he always been like this . . . life on his terms only? Ugh.
Do you have family you can go to? I would consider that. He's not really there for you any way and having family support you would probably be better.
also, get out. make some friends. That will be easier when the baby arrives as moms kind of naturally look to each other for support. There is something called MOPS which is 'mothers of preschoolers' and that includes babies. It's a national organization and they hold 'meetings' at churches (but being religious is not necessary). I joined and made one of my best friends through MOPS. they have these once a month meetings where they provide child care and then you go to the hour long meeting. Then they do lots of social things like all the moms will meet at a park with packed lunches and their babies/kids. It was really nice for the social aspect and making friends.
hang in there