..I duno were else to post guess this is more of a vent

[ftmkelowna]

June 2 2010 I lost a very good friend ashlee to a murdering jealous b**** at a party by another girl that was SUPPOSED to be her friend, 2 weeks ago her trial finally started for 2nd degree murder, 3 days into the trial there was an accident involving ashlee's on an off again boyfriend his bestfriend an 2 other girl---friends of theres, ashlees boyfriend an one of the girls died on scene.the other guy was okay his girlfriend had brain injurys but ended up pulling thru needless to say It has been a very long 2 weeks listening to everything an having to relive the horrible night ashlee was taken.. the trial is supposed to end this week, today the accused is going on the stands an then its supposed to pretty much fall in the jurys hands. Ive been a complete basket case crying my emotions have just been all over the place, for the most part my boyfriend has been pretty understanding he doesnt like that i go to the court house everyday but he gets it.. however he thinks that maybe i should talk to my doctor about going onto an anti depressent… I dont know if i want to do that becuase i dont know if its hormones or what… im 33 weeks 4 days.. should i just wait an see how it all goes after i give birth or is somthing i should be talking to my doctor about now?

[ftmkelowna]

Thank you its been extremely difficult not somthing i'd wish upon an person to have to go thru.. my boyfriend an i talked more tonight an for his an mines sanity were going to talk to my doctor togeather.

[AlysMom85]

Wow!! :-0 well, umm to answer your question I'd bring it up to your doctor now and let them make that determination. I hear where you're coming from but there's still issues like depression and or post pardum depression that you could have to deal with and that wouldn't be good for you, your baby or your relationship. I'm sorry to hear about your loss :( I can't imagine what must be going through your mind mentally or emotionally. ((Hugs))