I am at the *(#&@&$ end of my rope!!!!!!!! VENT

[martikadragoon]

I don't honestly know how this freakin week can get much worse. First off we put the dog to sleep, we've been chauffering my MIL around for 2 weeks since she made bad choices and got her car repod and then we've been bussing my mother and family around, or letting them use our car to run around.

Then tuesday because DH got a text from his boss telling him they needed him, I waited 20min for him to get ready to go into work making me late to my pain management appointment which I've waited 4 months for ONLY for him not to go in to work but go with me.

So I get there, after an hour long drive only to be told that because there was a line and the check in guy took his swee *ssed time seeing ppl that I was too late to be seen. THEN they tell me that even though I've waited 4 months to be seen the doctor is refusing to see me because I was too late. The woman begins playing head games telling me my prior auth will expire THAT day and to call my primary dr to get it extended. She says she has an opening for thursday morning but won't make the appointment til my auth is extended.

So I call my primary dr's office for them to tell me that they're going to wait for it to expire then begin the referral process all over again (which took over 2 months this last time!!) So I call a friend at my insurance and within 1 phone call she gets my auth extended and tells me to have pain mgmt call my insurance to verify.

When  I call my pain mgmt clinic the woman says since she made 3 phone calls on MY behalf to get my auth extended that she's not going to call my insurance and will have to wait til someone faxes the auth over so I make another call to my insurance so SHE can call the B*tch at pain mgmt.

Then yesterday she calls me in the morning and tells me her closest appointment is OCTOBER 15TH!!!! WHen I ask what happened to the opening thursday she claims to never have told me there WERE any openings on thursday. I told this woman she can't do her job worth a damn and that she needs to get some training and I'm reporting her and their office to the proper places.

So after that I spend 4 fricken hours today running my mom, sister dh and MIL around to various places because in the end I need my car and don't have a choice. When dropping DH off for work I ask "what time for lunch?" and he tells me 7 so at about 6pm I call and tell him I'm supposed to drive across town w/my mom and TJ at 8 to go see my brother and SIL and the new baby, he says nothing.  at 6:45 I get our son dressed (while listening to him SCREAM For a good half hour) and go to Dh's work only for DH to tell me "can you come back at 7:30" when I asked why the heck he couldn't bother texting or calling me before I left since he'd KNOWN since 6:30 he says he figured I would text him.

I AM SO F&CKING SICK OF PPL BEING IDIOTS and relying on us for our car and everything... it's getting to be too much and I"m at the end of my rope. I'm about to tell everyone to eff off and slap the next person who even talks to me.

All I want to do right now is cry. (and no I don't need suggestions that I'm suffering depression or Bipolar, this is the first time I've felt this way in a LONG Time)

[Riot_Queen]

Hahaha I deff will!
I gatta invite my best friend Felicia and her man thang too!!
hahahaha

[martikadragoon]

if you find that island make sure to invite me and carlos and the kids along for the stay!

[Riot_Queen]

Ugh I hear you girl.
I HATE EVERYTHING right now.
My doc is concidering labeling me as high risk, and money's super tight right now, we got all this cr@p we gatta get done between now and x-mas.
MIL is being a c**t!! OMG

Everything is just falling apart right now and all I wanna do is relax and prepare for the new baby and I CAN'T!
Ugh.

I wish there was like some fantasy island I could run away to with Josh and Ivy, that had food, cloths and water of plenty, and never hadda worry about another bill in my life.
Oh, and there's gatta be unicorns!!

[martikadragoon]

by the way, MIL can't contribute much more than that right now as mostly all her money goes towards keeping herself a place to live. She won't consider moving into a 55+ place which would be about $200-400 cheaper a month.

[martikadragoon]

Yes, they are paying gas money, My MIL only contributes about $20-30 a week, and only gets mad if it's brought up in any way that it's her own fault she lost her car. (she's a teacher so pay in summer is minimal, and she didn't budget enough which is how she lost her car)
her loan matured and they wanted it all.... at least when it happened to DH and I we managed to figure out how to pay it. MIL also relies on payday loans which are a nasty cycle, and she makes excuses for how she can't get by without.

My mom's excuse is always "well we're family and I would do it for you"... when I've told her that I felt like  I had a familial obligation to make sure they all get rided everywhere she said 'no you dont, and Id do it for you if it were turned around".... she expects EVERYTHING to always be ok, for me never to expect stuff from her monitarily because we're family and it's as though "family" makes everything ok......

I have known we're being taken advantage of but there's not much we can do about it right now other than gripe.

[happy_mommy]

It isn't depression it is finally realizing you are being taken advantage of!  I am really sorry this is happening. Are they at least paying you gas money?  I would make them have their plans around your schedule if they are relying on you to take them places!  My grandma is like that so i completely understand where you are coming from, i don't even want to vent about her!