Thanks for your words of encouragement. It really helps. I should just let him go. I know that I'm worth way more than what gives me and it sounds like you know my situation down to a t sadly. I'm just having this internal conflict saying I love him and want to be together. And the other saying let him go and count your blessings... I just don't know why I was chosen to goo through these struggles.
You sound just like me when I was pregnant w my second baby. Sounds like the exact same situation!! Such a flashback! That was 15 years ago... We stayed together for 6more months after I had my daughter... And I finally realized that mistrust, cheating, abusive language and only one person carrying the load of two in order to hold together a relationship was NOT the foundation on which I wanted my children to learn what life was about! Not like that! Not growing up experiencing life with this MADNESS! I knew it would be hard, but God gave me two innocent lives to help shape and form, and this WOULD NOT be part of it. Beloved woman... You are at this moment carrying the innocent soul of his child... And he CHOOSES to WALK away. He has already CHOSEN to lie, to cheat, and to put you through hell at your most vulnerable moment... That is not a man that deserves you in the least! That is not a man at all!! All I can advise, is as difficult as it is right now, is you make the choice to be the mother of your children! NOT his girlfriend. These children will look to you your whole life for a basis for their own worth. If you choose this guy who hurts you all, what worth will these children feel about their worth in your eyes? Yes, this guy is their dad... But they are literally a part of you... They rely on you to keep them safe both while they are on the inside of you, and once they are at your side! Your well being is sooo much important than what this fool thinks he "knows"! And if he doesn't have the smarts or decency to "know" that, he's not worth it for either you nor your precious babies! God bless you to keep you strong for those who need you the most! Please update... Hope this helped...
He's so mistrustful because of his own mess ups. Putting your foot down will show him he needs to make a choice. Don't let him control you or the relationship. He doesn't deserve that with what he's done and put you thru.
I know you're so right. I just wish he would actually trust me. It's so frustrating that he never gives me the benefit of the doubt but he insist that I should forgive him for everything. Then I do. Most of the time I regret doing it. Maybe I should just let it go it's just hard because I really want to keep our family together and I really do love him. Hoi this *****
Those who cheat and lie are the most insecure. He knows he's messed up and cheated in the past and he knows karma has got to catch up at some point so he's quick to think you've done the same to him. Those who chest and lie are also the most jealous. They think about how they act and what they do and it makes them mistrustful. I say let him go. He'll realize what he's done and what he's lost and he'll come back. If not you deserve better. I know it's easier said than done because you're pregnant but be strong mama. Let him know you've stood behind him thru his infractions and he should give you the benefit of the doubt because you've never done anything wrong.