I've been terrible

[Tepool123]

Here's what I did. I smoked pot till 23 weeks.  And I took two halves of a 2mg xanax between 20 and 22weeks.
I know what I did was wrong. I am a bad person.  I have stopped everything.  But its to late now. I fear they will take my baby, but I understand if they do. I was weak. And I know I would get her back in time because I will cooperate fully. I told my doctor about the pot but not the xanax. I will tell him next visit.
I just want to know what I should prepare myself for. I want my baby, but I want what's best fot her more. Even if its not me.
Does anyone know what will happen to my baby? As far as cps and health go? Like I said I quit pot and I've had no trouble quitting, I was only smoking mornings when I was sick and that's over. The doctors didn't tell me to quit they didn't seem to care. I just want to prepare myself for if they take the baby for the one time use of xanax and I don't know if my doctor will tell me if Ill lose my child or not.

[Tepool123]

Thank you. Your absolutely right. You helped a lot. <3

[baby_love2014]

All you can do is be honest and not do it again. Now you know better. Don't stress out too much. .. that's not good for the baby either. I know it's next to impossible not to stress but there's a little life depending on you. Keep your head up.

[Tepool123]

Thanks, I'm very scared to tell my Doctor about the xanax.  Id hate to throw myself to the wolves if they'll never know and Ill never ever do it again.  I know its not an excuse but I'm young (21) and the condom slipped off. I never expected to be pregnant. So every step of this pregnancy has been an overwhelming and scary. I didn't get the best advice from people I know. A mother gave me the xanax and asured me everything would be fine just not to tell my doctor. I know its stupid. But then I heard of them testing the babies first potty and became more terrified than before because now instead of just worrying about the health I'm scared to lose her.  
Sorry to ramble, I'm just so lost. And I know I did it to myself.

[baby_love2014]

It's understandable that you're scared. It'll be okay. I'm wishing you lots of luck and hoping for the best. Stay strong momma.

[Tepool123]

Thankyou. I believe it will all be okay.  Its just very scary

[rasberryxtreme]

Nothing will be in the babies system at delivery time so your child won't get taken away.

[Tepool123]

Thank you.  But I'm afraid its impossible to relaxe. I have a heavy guilty heart. But thank you.

[baby_love2014]

First off, I don't condone smoking or taking pills or anything like that, especially when pregnant...however you need to try to relax. The important thing is that you quit. I don't think the baby will have any withdrawls, so that's a good thing. Just try to breathe and have a healthy rest of your pregnancy. Make sure you're taking your prenatals and drinking a lot of water. Whats done is done. You can't go back but you can move forward in a healthy way.

[Tepool123]

Thank you.  I suppose no one can really tell what will happen for sure.

[Lilseamonkey]

They will definitely drug test baby after it's born but idk if the weed a xanax will still be in her/his system after all that time. She won't go through any withdrawals because you've stopped now. Dr may or may not get cps involved that's something you'll have to discuss with him.