Oh goodness you must be devistatsted. I'm so sorry to hear about this. I don't know anyone else going thru this but I'm sure there are grief support websites out there where you can find ppl in similar situations. I'll be keeping u in my prayers.
I'm really sori for ur loss, I've lost a fiance yrs ago to cancer, bt I hope in time everythn wil b ok for u an ur bby, tke care