Today has left me in low spirits. I try all I can to be happy but it's so hard. I've already cried four times today. I was doing really great for myself and now circumstances have changed and I'm struggling with everything you can imagine. I don't want to sit here and feel no one understands my plight because there are people out there in worse situations but I'm feeling extremely discouraged. The only advice I ever get from people is pray and just be happy but honestly nothing is showing through, I just see a long dark tunnel and I'm walking it alone. I don't question my ability to become a great mother for my child but I'm having trouble controlling my feelings and beliefs and providing for myself because I was abandoned, so I am also feeling stuck...like I won't be able to make my little girls life any good. I just wish happiness was more obtainable and I felt more comfortable doing everything with myself as the only support.