getting checked for depression...

[torixoxo1]

Okay so tomorrow I get tested for Depression & bi-polar disorder. I had a feeling I was bipolar before & now that I'm preg I'm CRAZY! So they are checking. Also I think I'm depressed for numerous reasons example; I cry all the time. I don't want to be around people, I don't want to talk to people I sometimes think peoples lives mostly my fiances life would be better without me here. However I would never act upon anything. My fiance works 24/7 and loves his job. He doesnt really have time for me anymore he doesn't want to loose me but he doesn't have time to work on our relationship because of his job. I've told him over & over I'd never leave him. But I think him working all the times the reason I'm depressed. & if I am depressed I'd feel horrible because I'm pregnant & I'm supposed to be happy which I am but idk.. I just feel bad. Like being depressed is my fault. & I shouldn't be depressed while preg.
Idk the point of this post I guess just to get it off my chest my fiance knows I'm being tested  he doesn't know that I feel like a bad parent for being depressed. I don't want to add more worry to him.
I just wish his job didn't pick up. In the winter its slower so now its summer he's busy as ever. Eh.

[torixoxo1]

Same here mines on call all day everyday & also doesn't get time off

[Alibby13]

No he works for an industrial painting company. He's gone 13 hours a day and never gets a day off. I live in a tiny town so theres not a whole lot to do.

[torixoxo1]

Oops I posted this twice ha is he a tow truck driver too?

[Alibby13]

You're not alone... I'm thinking I might have the exact same issue.. my fiance has the same job situation and I cry 24/7. Just try to keep your head up. I'm trying to find a hobby to occupy more time.