UGH!

[33159813]

Every time my boyfriend is gone I'm scared he's doing something he shouldn't be. Plus I sit home & think of every negative possibility or past argument or fear I have, so I basically sit in my own pitty. I feel like I can't trust him, which os ridiculous, maybe. Idk! Not too crazy but I should have more faith in hin:/ I hate that I get so down & depressed when he isn't here. He doesn't live.with me yet, he's.slowly moving in within the next few weeks. But when he isn't here I just have no filter for these bad thoughts! I just feel like everything negative matters! I'm tired of being fat & unable to lose weight. The fatter I get, the more insecure i am, I was overweight before I became pregnant but I was in the process of losing weight, gained more than I lost ! I'm tired of being so insecure, I go.in public & notice every skinny, pretty girl. I feel like a complete pile of crap. I look to see if my boyfriend notices them & sometimes he looks but doesn't realize it, then I get more upset & feel uglier. My face is broke out in pimples, even my fat clothes won't fit me, I have nothing to.wear that makes me feel cute but there's only 38 days til my due date so why buy new clothes if i can't afford them. Uggghhhhhh!

[aw1224]

Glad I'm not the only one!!!

[33159813]

Wow, I'm sorry mommyjosie559:/
I'm glad I'm not the only one with these made up obsessive thoughts lol. I hate that I can't control it! I wasn't like this at all before I got pregnant. I mean seriously, I feel pathetic! I hope it goes away, I feel so unappealing in every way, it kills me not knowing what he's doing! I just want him to come home & hold me til I fall asleep lol. Oh & I cry almost every time he leaves, I just can't handle being without him!

[maybay]

Try to change your thoughts. When you start to think like that just tell your self to stop and think if happy things.

[mommyjosie559]

Yea you're just over thinking. If he isn't acting any different it's all you and your mind. It's the hormones mama. No we are no longer together and he refuses to speak to me.

[vivi2013]

uhh I feel yah , righ now im here watchin the clock waiting for him to came home from work , ahhh really ***** that I wonder about every little thing , where he is at , is he gonna come home , does he still loves me , is he cheating , and on and on .. I just feel so miserable all the time cuz I cant stop thinking about the negative side . im jealous of his ****** shadow lmao not that I let him know any of that but it ***** !!! he tells me he loves me all the time and he does everything I want , but I still feel that way ! cant wait till my lil man is here so I can actually have other things to worry about !

[33159813]

Thanks. & he isn't, my mind just gets going & doesn't stop. Then I act toward him as if he did something wrong lol it's all in my head but I still can't change the thought processes. Did it get better for you?

[mommyjosie559]

I know how you feel. I went through that with my baby daddy. He lives an hour away so I only got to see him weekends when he didn't work. An his a good looking guy so I know girls look at him. He started acting distant like not holding my hand in public and stopped asking me to send him pictures when he couldn't see me. I let it get to me and we fought a lot. So unless his not treating you any different you have nothing to worry about