im pregnant again!...but im so scared

[laura1985]

okay. i took a test yesterday morning and got a bfp! this was not expected at all! we have not been trying and ive been on provera the last week to try to get my period. i stopped the provera and went to the doctor yesterday to do a beta. i will know the results on monday. i still have prometrium left over from months ago (100 mgs), and they told me to start that right away and my lovenox. they told me to take one prometrium, but i am nervous so i am taking one in the a.m. and one before bed.

i am freaking out ladies! this is so unexpected...i just have the mentality that i am going to miscarry again. i keep going to the bathroom to check for blood all the time. im really trying not to stress about it. i havent told anyone but my best friend. dh doesnt even know yet!

i want to keep this pregnancy so bad, but after 4 miscarriages already, it feels like doomsday right now.

[laura1985]

well, somehow i ended up getting a false positive on the test (no clue how it happened b/c i am not on anything that would produce a false positive). my blood test shows that i have no hcg in my system. i am so sad. even though we wernt trying, i thought that maybe this "fluke" would be how God intended it to happen. i go back on the 7th if i still havent gotten my period. i think the methotrexate really messed me up. i read today that you shouldnt ttc for at least 6 months after having a round of it. so i think i am going to stop ttc for about 6 months and see what happens. we are gonna talk with the doc about bc too. i know i will probably change my mine, but who knows at this point!

i dont know what i would do without ya'll support!

[Gina209]

First off, Congrats!! That's wonderful news! And its completely normal to worry ALL the time. I have had 2 previous M/C's in the past 9 months and I just got my BFP very unexpected in May. I was sooo freakin out! We weren't even trying and just the month before I had my second M/C. So it definitely caught me by surprise. But now I'm almost 8 weeks and everythings going great so far! From the very beginning I have felt so positive about this Pregnancy and I've already seen and heard my babys heartbeat! So as hard as it is not to worry, you just really need to stay positive and remember that no matter how many M/C's you've had, that doesn't mean you're doomed for another. Just try and relax, take it day by day and just remind yourself that whats meant to be, will! So enjoy your pregnancy!!

[ccw59]

I understand your fears & worries. I have had 2 miscarriages & I can only imagine I how I would feel when we get pregnant again.  I am sorry for your other losses.  Although it is going to be hard just try not to worry & rest as much as possible.  

Good luck at the doctor & I am sure everything will be fine.

[pmperez]

When I got pregnant again after miscarriage I did the same thing, checking for blood all the time, but once you see the heartbeat and then get to listen to it, you will not be as nervous, atleast that was the case for me I still worry if I feel cramping or anything and I still check for blood when I whipe.  Did they ever test to see why you have miscarried so many times?  WIth my miscarriage I had a feeling of doom from the begining, but with this one even though I was nervous I didnt have that feeling, I felt really good about it...let us no how things are going and good luck..

[sweetangel7]

I've only had one mc and we are waiting for our bfp again and I am worried about it for next time...I can't imagine how you must feel.  Try to stay calm, easier said than done =)  I'm not sure I'd double up on the prometrium without a doctor's consent but that is up to you.  Good luck!