moment of truth

[ftm2013]

I see some of these post that ask who or if anyone smoked during there pregnancy and I would purposely bypass those post cause I was ashamed to admit I smoked during my pregnancy but I just need to get this off my chest for everyone who smokes while pregnant.........before I got pregnant I was a heavy smoker after finding out I cut down to half a pack (before I was a pack a day) and as weird as it sounds I would always justify myself by telling myself well so and so smoked her whole pregnancy and had healthy baby's or it's stress on baby to quit cold turkey I would have people tell me how they smoked or knew people who smoked while pregnant and had healthy Babys and I honestly thought I'd be the same way. I went into pre term labor at 27+6 days and it scared the hell out of me so I quit for eight days but for some reason picked back up to about 6 a day and would for some stupid reason justify it by I don't want to stress my baby so I will cut down gradually this has been the biggest mistake I would ever make now my baby is measuring 2 weeks behind and I just had to have labor stopped again yesterday at 34+6. I can't help but feel like my selfishness has hurt my baby and that maybe just maybe had I quit earlier none of this would be happening and the only person suffering is my baby I have cried myself to sleep over this all I wanted was a healthy baby and because of something I choose to do I might not have that and its not fair to her. My midwife says its because of my diabetes but I really don't know and never will because I can't say "I done everything I could to make sure she was healthy" that is a horrible feeling!! So for the ones who smoke please please think about this before lighting up I don't want to be a hypocrite but I would hate for anyone to have to look back at there pregnancy and feel as bad and guilty as I do. Just because someone else had healthy pregnancys doesn't mean you will and even if you have complicated pregnancys it would feel soo much better to look back and say "I did everything I could to help my baby be healthy" unfortunately I can't say that and I don't want that for anyone else.

[missymay34]

Just wanted to let you know that I smoke as well. I am not proud of it but when I tried to quit it sent me into preterm labor. The doc suggested I continue to smoke just smoke less.

[ftm2013]

I've definitely quit just ***** it took me this long :/

[rosey3216]

Yeah I found out I was pregnant at 6 weeks and tried to justify it the same way by saying "well I have friends that smoked through their pregnancy and their babies are fine" but that doesn't always work out. Finally at 10 weeks a girl commented on my facebook status saying "you know, I used to smoke a pack a day and smoke weed everyday, the DAY I found out I was pregnant, I quit everything. You have to stop thinking about yourself and start thinking about the life growing inside you!! Smmfh." This was a girl I used to be friends with. I was so pissed off that I got high (like always) and went to sleep. But the next day I kept reading it over and over and realized....that she was right. Sometimes it takes a wake up call to realize something like that. I quit that day and haven't smoked anything since before thanksgiving.

The best thing you can do is quit now. Don't beat yourself up over what you can't change, just learn from it which it seems like you have. I hope other people find these stories inspirational as well.

[BryceTbaby2]

Brave girl. Its harder for some. I quit cold turkey when I found out about the baby. It was hard but I knew if I didn't stop then I wouldnt stop halfway through my pregnancy. Your right I believe there are women that will see your story and hopefully change their life. God gave courage to people like u for a reason.

[ftm2013]

I just don't want anyone to think they are invincible like I did or to have regret I do.

[rosey3216]

Wow. It took a lot of courage to admit all that and realize what's really important here. Yes, some people do get lucky with having healthy babies even though they smoke through pregnancy, but if it COULD cause complications, why even risk it? I hope everything goes well with your baby and thank you for putting your story out there. Best of luck to you hun.