How's this for unusual? I'm an attractive, educated, almost-43-year-old female, never married. String of short- and long-term relationships, with men.
Always thought my inability to sleep in the same bed with my significant other, excessive urination before sleep, dislike of cuddling, were tiny issues, but now I'm thinking I'm going to be single forever, because of it! I found out that an ex-boyfriend basically broke up with me because of it (and my control around my sleeping issues - i.e. pillow has to be a certain way, absolute silence in the house needed, etc.), and my last boyfriend thinks it's essential to sleep, comfortably, and intertwined, with his significant other.
Has anyone else experienced this? I also have sleep issues when I'm by myself, but they pale in comparison. And, get this: I CRAVE intimacy when I'm in a relationship, to the point where I'm neurotic, jealous, controlling and paranoid about what my boyfriend's up to (even when he's up to nothing!). I even hate his being on Facebook, with a bevy of beautiful "friends" on there, too. It got to the point where I wouldn't even look anymore! And, once my boyfriend has (understandably) run from my life, I bombard him with "I miss you" letters, emails, etc. I can't seem to hold anyone, OR let anyone go, despite my fear of intimacy! CRAZY!!!!!
Am I cracking up? How do I control this? Has anyone else experienced anything remotely similar to this?
Feedback needed! Thanks!