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Nothing about your exam required this kind of touch. And if he was touching you for sexual reasons, it contra-indicates what you have said in the past you desire from him. You once wrote that you only wanted a 'thing' with him if he really meant it sincerely. What you can be sure of is that if he rmeant love, he would have done something about it by now. Probably he is aware of the risks (losing his license, marriage, access to his kids) and has decided crossing the line isn't worth it, but he still can't keep his hands to himself. Given that, what he is doing now isn't very admirable or romantic, it's copping a feel of a patient in a clinic setting.
Wow, still? This, at this point, is indicating a great deal more about you than it is this doctor. Is there anyone else in your life or any changes you can make so that you don't have to rev up your romantic feelings in this way? You clearly have a crush. But this is so long term ongoing that you ruminate and obsess over it, that at this point, it is indeed nothing on his part. That's my opinion. You really need to move on and amp up the rest of your life to find what you are looking for. good luck
Is this the same doctor you asked about last year - the married one that you had feelings for?
If it is, I have to agree with the advice from then - nothing good will come out of it.
If it's a different one, I think the advice stands- nothing good will come out of a relationship with a married doctor - YOUR doctor - who is treating you professionally, and is married to someone else. He would likely lose his license.
I do hope you find what you're looking for romantically with someone, just not your doctor.
Something not appropriate is going on here, probably on both sides. Be careful, chances are you are not the only patient he treats this way.
P.S. The reason my back was bare is because my top had a low back (but before he moved my hair my hair was covering it). When he moved my hair my upper back was exposed so he could examine/touch it.