Thanks! I appreciate your advice. Our divorce will be finalized in September of this year.
My diagnosis is a mood disorder/split personalities. I guess you can say bi-polar. I'm seeing a psychologist for the time being but he can't prescribe me medications. He agrees I need to be put on medicine but doctor's around here only want to 302 you because they feel you can't wait for treatment. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow hopefully I can begin treatment besides the counseling. I don't blame my affair solely on my mental illnesses but do believe they play a little part. My husband told me to have faith that I can get better as he knows there are two sides to me. He knows that I'm a good person deep down. Do you see why this is such a roller coaster.
Thanks for your kind words and I do have faith God will let us be together again. :-)
Hello there!
Well, as the guys said, these kinds of things take time. Some people can move past an affair, and some never do. Are you officially divorced from one another? I think it's fair to say that if he went that far, it's been pretty tough on him. I don't quite understand the divorce part if he's still considering trying to reconcile though. Divorce isn't a punishment, it's the ending of a marriage once one or both of the partners has come to the decision that the marriage is over. If he was considering reconciliation, I would think a separation would have made more sense. Divorce is supposed to be considered final, and not a way to make someone "pay" for their marital transgressions.
When you say "split personalities", what were you actually diagnosed with and what kind of treatment are you getting? Are you talking about bi-polar disorder? If so, it's VERY important that you keep up with the treatment regimen. Also, while I most certainly understand how something like BPD could attribute to some poor decisions, it's very important that you own your choices and not blame them solely on your condition. That's vital in you being able to move forward (and him too).
Good luck to you. Hopefully after some time passes, and maybe some couple's therapy, you and your husband can try to fix your relationship.
Thanks for your advice. I really appreciate it!
Thank you very much! I feel everyone deserves a second chance. I know I will never make this mistake again. I know how much hurt and pain it caused everyone involved. I appreciate your advice.
I think most of these questions can only be answered by him.
An affair is tough to get over because the person you trust the most breaks that trust, so it is going to take him time. I would assume that he still cares about you.
Im sure when you husband is alone and by himself reflecting on this tragety, he will also realize that it was a basic failure by the both of you and if he accepts this without letting his hurt manhood enter the picture, may come back with understanding and reget.
People make mistakes and yours not uncommon. In todays society so many things have changed, some for the better and some for the not so good.
With the internet and dating sites, and porn showing up everywhere its a very easy trap to fall into if we let our guard down. Temptations are all around us.
There are great attibutes that you have and thats why he married you in the first place. This wonderful part of you is also in his mind but is clouded with hurt.
Just give him time because looking back, if i were not married now, and my ex came back, i would forgive her and take her in again with open arms.
Time heals all wounds and true love is deep set into our very essense.