Have you ever considered that she maybe having an Affair
I think you can access therapeutic health care online from where you are, and i think that it's imperative that you do. You're in a very bad situation, if you are in a country or a village where you cannot find a loving partner. You deserve that. In my opinion the mother is selfish taking the boy away from the country where the child was born and away from the father. If she were considering the best interests of the child that it. But i don't believe that she is. There are many kids that don't have a choice whether they have a father or not, but that is not the case, you are a good loving father and your son would suffer needlessly if it were impossible for you to be with him consistently. It should be her that moves back to where you met, so that you can live your life, find wife to help you coparent your son. That's what would be in the best interests of the child in my mind. So much so, that if you were legally married, i would suggest that you fight that the child be taken away from your country. I do not believe that the mother is necessarily always the best choice of custodial parent.
I have a lot of respect for you that you are attending to your child. I think you need to cut out of the equation having anything more to do with his mother though - after all of the information you have given. Are you able to communicate enough to date where you are? I know it's hard for you to imagine doing so, but i think that it would do you good. You don't have to be intimate to date. Do you have any female friends where you are?
Oh, I didn't mean to imply you felt sorry for yourself! Depression is a mental health condition that people can't help if they have it, sometimes based on life circumstances and sometimes just based on brain chemistry. Sexual issues can be part of that. That's why I brought it up. Taking new medications can also contribute if you do any of that. Otherwise, maybe it IS emotional just from missing her? Anyway, glad you get out and about.
If you see them both daily, that's not really long distance. I misunderstood and thought you lived elsewhere.
Anyway, I'm really sorry. As anniebrooke says, it does take two people to want a relationship to work and she seems to be trying to nicely tell you that she is not wanting it. That hurts when you love someone but especially when you have a child involved! Time does dull pain though. I would keep busy, work really hard, and you can stop doing things for HER like driving her to work. That is kind of you but you will want to move on and be less with her than with just your son in order to move on. And she needs to not depend on you if she is going to continue to want to be broken up.
Glad you spend time with your son and you love him like you do! That's great!!
So, why a long distance relationship? If you want to be MORE in your son's life and have any hope of being with her, you'll need to figure out how to live near her. That's my suggestion. Even if you do not get back together with her, it would be easiest on you and more natural to the relationship with your son if you live in the same town as he does.
Unfortunately, she's been wishy washy but I think you can see her intentions. She probably does care for you but does not want to be with you. This is hard! Rejection is hard. But she sees something between the two of you that she doesn't feel you can overcome as a couple. You have to accept it. I'm so sorry!
Sexual issues such as lack of erection can happen when someone has different things going on like depression. Do you think you are depressed in a clinical way?
Hi, that is very hard. And it's quite a short time to try to give up on dreams, so of course you are still sad. But you have to realize that relationships take both people, and if one person is not wanting it, the other cannot make it happen. It might be time to see a counselor.
Here is something that kept coming up in my mind when reading your story. You're in love with an image, of you, her and your child all being together. But it's only an image, not reality. As things are, she is not with you and wants to be home with her mother. You are not in love with that. What is it about the image that you feel compelled to try to create despite all the evidence that it does not exist? Can you get some parts of that image in real life without trying to force someone to feel something that she clearly doesn't feel? For example, can you have relaxed and friendly times that do not lead to you expecting that suddenly the three of you will be together again?
Basically you're chasing an illusion, possibly that is prompted a little bit by ego or control issues and not so much by love. It's unpleasant to be left, it feels out of control. Please talk to a counselor about all of this, it will help a great deal.