my mom and step dad got a divorce please help me

[pitbulllover12345]

Hi well my mom and step dad just got a divorce i wish that i can go back in time and stop it but sadly i can't and all of my sadness is getting ahead of me and now my mom is getting married on October 31st and she got engaged right after the divorce was competently done i know the divorce is already done and i can't stop that but my sadness and my anger its just ahead of me and i'm taking out some of my anger on almost every body i know can people please give me tips on how to contain my anger and sadness i really really love her soon to be husband i really love him i don't want them to get married and i'm so on the verg of killing my self i'm so upset i have not been happy since this divorce stared i have five and three that i live with  siblings and here is the really really sad part i don't even know my real dad i would do any thing to meet him i have some people to talk to just the person that i just have to talk to is my mom her and i just don't communicate as well i can tell every thing to my grandma but for some reason we just can't talk to one a nother that well and sometimes i'm will be so sad that i feel like i'm going to throw up sometimes music makes me feel a little better but nothing can stop the pain from that divorce my step dad was the only father i knew at this point i just want to kill m self right now:( what i think is that for some reason it was my fault so i have a lot of gilt on me right now i just need a lot of tips  

[pitbulllover12345]

well i have a lot of contact with my step dad my moms feonsay is a great guy i love him he loves me its just that the divorce left a brews and then when i herd that they were getting married the brews just got bigger i know the divorce an not change and the wedding can't be changed but i just hope that they don't have a kid they said that they may and they may not i'm hoping for not cuz them that would be 5 kids counting me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i would still get the same love its i'm running away from my problems and that is so not the way to handle it i have to fight my anger my sadness ok to me sadness like serous serous sadness is like a disease to me you can be sad and angry but i have very serous anger and sadness i'm 11 i should have a happy childhood you only get to be a kid once s i want to make the best of it :D you know some times my animals help me cuz i can tell them any thing they would give me the answer i want they will just listen an sometimes lick me so they make me happy sometimes

[AHP84]

Are you still able to contact your step father? What's happened to him since the divorce?

[Modern_Jiver]

Hey, take a deep breath and relax for a minute.

You have taken the time to find this forum and that is a very good start.

How old are you by the way?

As much as we would all like to go back in time and change things, it cant happen so we have to deal with what life throws at us.

Is there a counsellor or teacher at school that you trust? Maybe you could ask them if you could talk to them about how you are feeling.

You say that listening to music helps, so until you can talk to someone, loose yourself in your music. Your siblings need you to be strong for them, are they are younger or older than you.

Please do continue to post here and Im sure other s will try to help you as well.