I do think Atem that we learn from each relationship we've had in our life. Take the lessons you can from this situation and apply them for next time. This is how we grow emotionally. All the best and luck to you.
I'd say move on. That door is closed and you more or less screwed the pooch.
Well atem, she may not hate you more than she loved you ---------- she may just be hurt. She may have decided that she does not want to risk a broken heart again. That is her option. I'm sorry you are in pain over this and hope that it gets better. If she has cut off all contact and wishes to not speak with you--------- you must move on. good luck and hope your heart heals fast.