wow, see the fear for me is that I know everything was protected, to be honest she was a nice lady and it was not A REALLY BAD EXPERIENCE/but it was the wrong way to experience it and i regret I couldn't stop myself.... and she was pretty its just that she was coughing allot and I'm having fears about when she washed me fluids mixed and after i hit orgasm we changed positions and I might have lied down in her fluids that were on the towel we were doing it on and I had a cut somewhere, or maybe the condom broke but everyone tells me I would have know. I think it's fear from inexperience. The doctor told me not to even get tested but I'm afraid so for my piece of mind ill get tested in 3 monthes. I hope it goes well for you boss I'm sure you will be fine.
Heh. Looks like I did exactly the same as you. A 'csw' did the whole breast soapy wash thing and then we had (protected) sex. Never had sex before. The experience was extremely unpleasant and disappointing, and she wasn't attractive. I also felt dirty and guilty afterwards. I would give everything to go back in time and stop myself from doing it. But to make things worse, I couldn't come to an orgasm, and eventually the condom came off, and after a while she took my penis back into her mouth, unprotected. I was too weak to say anything and now I probably have herpes. Yippie.
Hey I dunno, I asked the doctors opinion about my experience and I have to trust it was no risk I'm getting tested in 3 months anyway just for the sake of my own nerves. but never used a CSW its caused me nothing but fear, I only did it because I was alone for so long never had a gf and I dunno guess my hormones got the better of me and the situation just let me give in more. But even after the doctor's re-assured me its hard to accept without that 3 month test. I know its me it's just that its so easy to be scared I guess. IF ANYONE IS EVER THINKING ABOUT CSW DON'T it will ruin your life especially if it's your first sexual experiance. you feel fear, dirty and guilty and 3 months is a long time to wait to make sure your ok. I'm even too afraid to ask some girls out due to fear of infecting them or them finding out what I did. I know you think you will never do it but I think we all have vulnerable moments and who knows what will happen.
Thanks allot for your reply...Ill continue to use condoms but I think I won't be having sex for a while least till after my 3 month test. But I do have one more question thats kinda bothering me is that I have excema and this often causes my skin to dry and sometimes crack like I said to my knowledge with the exception of a pimple on the bottom of my penis their were no sores on me but could this later lead to a problem even though their was no sighs of skin irritation? I know its a strange question I'm just curious. Thanks again for helping to calm my nerves when I get the doctor results back I think I can sleep easy.
you are at ZERO risk for HIV. continue to use a condom in the future. as far as your painful urination, it may be a UTI - urinary tract infection. if this persists, go see your doctor.
you are at ZERO risk for HIV. continue to use a condom in the future. as far as your painful urination, it may be a UTI - urinary tract infection. if this persists, go see your doctor.