Thanks for you suggestions. I have deffinetely explored it and deffinetely thought long and hard where it came from and what it means. I've seen a therapist in the past about it as well. God gave me sexual urges to express love to my wife when I get married someday. My dad is someone I look up to extremely and I can never be him, but I would have you know he has never masterbated, and he saved his first kiss for his wife, after they said I do, so self-mastery over appetites is possible. Today I didn't masterbate and tomorrow I'll give it another 24 hours. thanks Ericashley
You have to stop making everything seem so taboo. Believe it or not, you can believe in JC and not be so uptight. Fetishes in general result from some kind of psychological trigger. Maybe something to do with some girl with long hair in your past really hit you on some deep level. I don't know. But, the fact that you think you absolutely cannot do things just makes you want to do them more. If God didn't want you to have sexual urges, why did he give them to you? Every single person ever born has masturbated, ok? The only way to make this thing go away (and that's a maybe) is to explore it. You don't have to delve into it and get all obsessed with it but just try to figure out why you like it, where did it come from, what is it that really gets you off about it. If you don't understand it, it will continue to be a mystery on how to deal with it.
Masturbation is completely normal. Don't over think it!