alright here it is, i was a pack a day until 1986, quit with my wife for 18 yrs. then she started smoking again in 2001, needless to say after not wanting any, being around her for a couple yrs smoking it reawoke my smoking disease. So, smoked on and off in 2003, quit for 2004. Then she died in 2005 not from smoking at 41. So I felt justified to bury my grief in cigs. since then i have struggled on and off. even stopped for 2.5 months after surgeries and started again each time. Now back to one or 5 a day or none for a few days, but it keeps coming back.
I have good resolve to stop but break down at times well after the nicotine is gone from my system. I truly enjoy smoking but know that its not good for my health. My heart runs faster, throat is sore, and have buried two step fathers from a lifetime of smoking.
How do i quit and STAY QUIT?
I really want to stop and stay stopped. any help and suggestions would be truly appreciated.