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Its me shaz853 i couldn't post on the forum and it wouldn't let me log in and i had to re-join, i would write my e-mail address but i don't know if it would let me.
The night went ok but i realised how changed i really am i was so uncomfortable and so easily annoyed and upset, it depressed me even more, my partner and i fell out then because he was so drunk we didn't get home until 3am
I was still frustrated from talking to the doctor as well, but i guess i can see i have been unpredictable lately, he asked me was i sure i could keep myself safe i said yes he said i had to work with them in helping myself. He asked had i reasons to live i said i'm sure i have, he asked me could i see a future i said not now, he asked was i driving home i said i was and he asked was i definelty going home i said i was, he asked did i have a plan and i said no. He asked me to reassure him that i would be ok for now and i said i'll try so thats probably why they didn't hospitalize me at that time i was ok when talking to him, if he had seen me after or this morning that was a different picture. He said if i say in that moment that i am ok then he has to trust me but if that changes i need to tell them i said i would. I think i would have felt better had he asked more about other stuff but your probably right the safety issue was maybe the most important. He asked that on Tuesday when i planned to go away he asked what brought me back i said talking to my therapist he seemed surprised that i came back for him and not my family but i was talking to my therapist at that time and he was making me think of him so thats why, i didn't want to think of anyone but listening to him helped at that time but now they trust me even less, i find that frustrating but i guess its my fault.
I am hoping my therapist will tell me what the doctor discussed but he might not. That form of depression you mentioned that was what he said, first time it was major depressive disorder but not now i've had it too long. I thought suicidal thoughts were more present with major depressive disorder but they must be present with depression in general.
I don't know why i couldn't post on the forum or log in but i hope this works ok.
I hope all is well with you, have a good day.
The night went ok but i realised how changed i really am i was so uncomfortable and so easily annoyed and upset, it depressed me even more, my partner and i fell out then because he was so drunk we didn't get home until 3am
I was still frustrated from talking to the doctor as well, but i guess i can see i have been unpredictable lately, he asked me was i sure i could keep myself safe i said yes he said i had to work with them in helping myself. He asked had i reasons to live i said i'm sure i have, he asked me could i see a future i said not now, he asked was i driving home i said i was and he asked was i definelty going home i said i was, he asked did i have a plan and i said no. He asked me to reassure him that i would be ok for now and i said i'll try so thats probably why they didn't hospitalize me at that time i was ok when talking to him, if he had seen me after or this morning that was a different picture. He said if i say in that moment that i am ok then he has to trust me but if that changes i need to tell them i said i would. I think i would have felt better had he asked more about other stuff but your probably right the safety issue was maybe the most important. He asked that on Tuesday when i planned to go away he asked what brought me back i said talking to my therapist he seemed surprised that i came back for him and not my family but i was talking to my therapist at that time and he was making me think of him so thats why, i didn't want to think of anyone but listening to him helped at that time but now they trust me even less, i find that frustrating but i guess its my fault.
I am hoping my therapist will tell me what the doctor discussed but he might not. That form of depression you mentioned that was what he said, first time it was major depressive disorder but not now i've had it too long. I thought suicidal thoughts were more present with major depressive disorder but they must be present with depression in general.
I don't know why i couldn't post on the forum or log in but i hope this works ok.
I hope all is well with you, have a good day.
I would usually get up about 5.30 or earlier. These days it is when I wake up which is usually between 6 and 8.
10.30 pm. Maybe earlier, maybe later. Depends what's on TV or how I feel. Sometimes I stay up much later. These days I'm going to bed sometime between 8.30 and 10.
It's quite a letter soup. It's what you said you had anyway.
I don't know what happened to my finger. It's been swollen, sore and infected for about 9 weeks now.
So far it's not been so bad. Hopefully when my parents pick the mail up from in town there will be a letter for me. Fingers crossed.
I hope your T is working with you to help reduce the anxiety and panic.
10.30 pm. Maybe earlier, maybe later. Depends what's on TV or how I feel. Sometimes I stay up much later. These days I'm going to bed sometime between 8.30 and 10.
It's quite a letter soup. It's what you said you had anyway.
I don't know what happened to my finger. It's been swollen, sore and infected for about 9 weeks now.
So far it's not been so bad. Hopefully when my parents pick the mail up from in town there will be a letter for me. Fingers crossed.
I hope your T is working with you to help reduce the anxiety and panic.
I was ok when i started the course but things changed and i got worse. The course finishes now in five weeks time then we are of for two months and then the interviews begin for September thats when it starts again. Do you get up that early all the time, what time do you go to bed?
Therapy went well, he asked how it went with the doctor and i told him he didn't say much, so he told me that i have PTSD, Argraphobia, Depression, anxiety and panic attacks and Ocd so now i know. The ptsd explains alot then i know now why i feel so suicidal and my moods change so quick, i am glad he told me.
I have that meeting tomorrow morning at 9am thats early for me, i will leave the children to school and go on from there, i am anxious, my therapist won't be going to it he just wants to work with me on what he knows best and then let others help in their way so i can see his point and i am glad he was honest with me.
What happened your finger? Its good he will check up on the review for you.
I don't want to show my partner he knows about here but he doesn't like me being on here. I took a panic attack last night when i was trying to sleep it lasted for ages, my therapist said i probably took one after the other thats why they lasted for ages.
I feel the anxiety building tonight again i need to remember its only panic.
I hope you have a good day.
Therapy went well, he asked how it went with the doctor and i told him he didn't say much, so he told me that i have PTSD, Argraphobia, Depression, anxiety and panic attacks and Ocd so now i know. The ptsd explains alot then i know now why i feel so suicidal and my moods change so quick, i am glad he told me.
I have that meeting tomorrow morning at 9am thats early for me, i will leave the children to school and go on from there, i am anxious, my therapist won't be going to it he just wants to work with me on what he knows best and then let others help in their way so i can see his point and i am glad he was honest with me.
What happened your finger? Its good he will check up on the review for you.
I don't want to show my partner he knows about here but he doesn't like me being on here. I took a panic attack last night when i was trying to sleep it lasted for ages, my therapist said i probably took one after the other thats why they lasted for ages.
I feel the anxiety building tonight again i need to remember its only panic.
I hope you have a good day.
If you're not medically fit then they shouldn't have let you do this course.
Next year is a bit away anyway. A lot can happen in a day let a lone several months.
I'm tired too. The tilers are back again today. It was 6 am this morning though. I have been getting out of bed between 6 and 8. Which is still quite late, especially considering day light savings has ended and getting up earlier should be easy.
The appointment was during his break -I think. He said he doesn't get any breaks.
He's going to try something different with my finger and then if it's not better in another 2-3 weeks then do an ultrasound and perhaps something a little more invasive.
He is going to follow up about the review. He thought I might have heard.
Good luck for all your appointments.
If you want you could show your partner the website. He would come back here straight away wouldn't he, to this group. Maybe that would make things worse. You could always let him post his own question somewhere.
Next year is a bit away anyway. A lot can happen in a day let a lone several months.
I'm tired too. The tilers are back again today. It was 6 am this morning though. I have been getting out of bed between 6 and 8. Which is still quite late, especially considering day light savings has ended and getting up earlier should be easy.
The appointment was during his break -I think. He said he doesn't get any breaks.
He's going to try something different with my finger and then if it's not better in another 2-3 weeks then do an ultrasound and perhaps something a little more invasive.
He is going to follow up about the review. He thought I might have heard.
Good luck for all your appointments.
If you want you could show your partner the website. He would come back here straight away wouldn't he, to this group. Maybe that would make things worse. You could always let him post his own question somewhere.
My course went ok i found it very tiring. I have found out that to continue next year everyone who is interested has to be mentally assessed to see if they could cope with it so i don't know where that leaves me if they knew about me having a therapist and being in hospital they might not let me on it.
I am very tired today, 7am is early i struggle at 11am somedays i get up at 8am and take the children to school then i go back to bed. I didn't sleep much last night i took a really bad panic attack about 1am and i was so scared at that point i wanted to run away to escape it but where could i go, i didn't sleep for hours. I have therapy in an hour and i still need to shower i lack all motivation i wonder if i went to him the way i look now would he get the picture.
How did it go with your GP?
I have told my partner all i can and he still stresses he takes the car keys to bed and takes the keys out of the front door, he is making me feel trapped. He doesn't seem to understand that sometimes i am ok. He was looking at my computer history again last night when i was away then i know because he is in a bad mood with me.
I am so anxious about therapy and then i have a meeting tomorrow morning with all three of them, therapist, social worker and the woman from woman's aid i will feel so odd one out, i think i will feel most attached to my therapist thought because he knows me longest and i fell safe with him and i trust him, whereas my social worker would admit me to hospital she made me not trust her as much. I know its for my own good but i am anxious.
I hope you are less stressed today and have a good day.
I am very tired today, 7am is early i struggle at 11am somedays i get up at 8am and take the children to school then i go back to bed. I didn't sleep much last night i took a really bad panic attack about 1am and i was so scared at that point i wanted to run away to escape it but where could i go, i didn't sleep for hours. I have therapy in an hour and i still need to shower i lack all motivation i wonder if i went to him the way i look now would he get the picture.
How did it go with your GP?
I have told my partner all i can and he still stresses he takes the car keys to bed and takes the keys out of the front door, he is making me feel trapped. He doesn't seem to understand that sometimes i am ok. He was looking at my computer history again last night when i was away then i know because he is in a bad mood with me.
I am so anxious about therapy and then i have a meeting tomorrow morning with all three of them, therapist, social worker and the woman from woman's aid i will feel so odd one out, i think i will feel most attached to my therapist thought because he knows me longest and i fell safe with him and i trust him, whereas my social worker would admit me to hospital she made me not trust her as much. I know its for my own good but i am anxious.
I hope you are less stressed today and have a good day.
People would worry more if you kept them to yourself and didn't disclose them.
I want to sleep in too. This morning I ended up getting up at 5 am due to the tilers coming. I use to be an early riser but now I struggle just to get out of bed by 7 am.
I often feel like that too. You do cope with the day though. As do I.
It's something. You can't expect to do everything again all at once. It will take time. Depression is extremely debilitating. Just take things one step at a time but make sure you do do something. Write a to do list if that helps.
It's your health they're talking about. You have every right to be interested. I'm the same though. I like all the details. I feel frustrated if parts don't gel or make sense.
But you will because you have your therapy appointment the next day!
Maybe you need to communicate a bit more with your partner so that he will feel less anxious and in turn trust you more. Maybe it is just about trust. After hospital it took a bit for my family to relax. It made me worse having them in my face all the time.
My GP said to come in and see him this afternoon about my finger. I'm stressing a bit. I should have made my normal appointment. I don't know if he is seeing me during one of his breaks. I hope not because he works late tonight.
I'm not sure what he'll do. I'm sure half my problem is stress and that I am converting that to physical symptoms (although not necessarily regarding my finger).
Enjoy your course. Guess that would have finished now.
Oh well. Good luck for your therapy appt.
I want to sleep in too. This morning I ended up getting up at 5 am due to the tilers coming. I use to be an early riser but now I struggle just to get out of bed by 7 am.
I often feel like that too. You do cope with the day though. As do I.
It's something. You can't expect to do everything again all at once. It will take time. Depression is extremely debilitating. Just take things one step at a time but make sure you do do something. Write a to do list if that helps.
It's your health they're talking about. You have every right to be interested. I'm the same though. I like all the details. I feel frustrated if parts don't gel or make sense.
But you will because you have your therapy appointment the next day!
Maybe you need to communicate a bit more with your partner so that he will feel less anxious and in turn trust you more. Maybe it is just about trust. After hospital it took a bit for my family to relax. It made me worse having them in my face all the time.
My GP said to come in and see him this afternoon about my finger. I'm stressing a bit. I should have made my normal appointment. I don't know if he is seeing me during one of his breaks. I hope not because he works late tonight.
I'm not sure what he'll do. I'm sure half my problem is stress and that I am converting that to physical symptoms (although not necessarily regarding my finger).
Enjoy your course. Guess that would have finished now.
Oh well. Good luck for your therapy appt.
I am very stressed today, my partner asks about my suicidal thoughts i feel bad about him knowing, i don't want people to worry.
I wake up wanting to stay in bed i feel i can't cope with the day i want to hide, i got up today and took my children to school then came back dressed one of the younger ones and took him to playgroup, then i came home and went to bed i had enough i was so tired, my partner seen to the youngest one.
I have my therapist tomorrow and i am anxious to hear if the doctor has told him anything, i am too curious for my own good.
I am very anxious today also and i need to relax. I have spent too much time on the computer as well, i have my course tonight instead of Wednesday, my partner is afraid i won't come home after.
I hope you have a good day.
I hope you have a good day.
I wake up wanting to stay in bed i feel i can't cope with the day i want to hide, i got up today and took my children to school then came back dressed one of the younger ones and took him to playgroup, then i came home and went to bed i had enough i was so tired, my partner seen to the youngest one.
I have my therapist tomorrow and i am anxious to hear if the doctor has told him anything, i am too curious for my own good.
I am very anxious today also and i need to relax. I have spent too much time on the computer as well, i have my course tonight instead of Wednesday, my partner is afraid i won't come home after.
I hope you have a good day.
I hope you have a good day.
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