Hard to control.

[VampireGirl]

I am a 14 year old girl. I sometimes get worked up over the most stupidest things. At times, I get angry and feel the need to hit something. Other times, I feel like breaking down and losing it. I am quiet in class and people judge me which brings me down even more. Whenever I'm depressed I usually start to reach for the food which makes my eating habits screw up. It's hard to control. If someone had come up to me and said the wrong thing while I was in a angry mood, I would more than likely hit them in some kind of way without realizing that I did it. I'm not sure what to do anymore about these problems I'm having. I sometimes get thoughts of horrible deaths or suicide. I want to get along easily. I think I'm starting to lose it with my boyfriend, I usually get into a lot of fights with him. Even my friends seem to be slowly backing away from me. I really need some help getting them back and controlling these problems. I've already chosen a future for myself and I'm afraid these kinds of problems could easily push that out of the way if I had lost it with my mother, and sent to a home. It has happened before. The police officer threatened me but still the uncontrollable behavior has come back over and over again.

[mtgoat911]

i can relate to this!! start reading some self help books
i do have worked the 12steps on my emotions, that has really helped
google emotions annonoumous
i mostly do na, but thats for addicts
the na book states that working the 12steps brings emotional balance
i go out and speak every other friday night at a adolecent hospital, tons of teen have this issue
you can work through it, i tried to kill myself when i was 14 over emotions, not worth
i didnt want to die, i just wanted to change the way i felt

[Judy246]

Hi...I'm old enough to be your mom, so I will talk to you like I would a daughter....It sounds like growning pains. The transition from a your girl to the hard world of a being a teenager. It's important to start to develope coping skills in order to  handle life's unexpected situations. Your emotions can be either easy or debilitating.  As for your classmates judging you, learn to like yourself and not care what they think about you.  Surround yourself with good people who like you just the way you are.  Like yourself for who you are and don't worry what anyone else thinks about you....if you do, it will make you crazy.  Warning: if you hit anyone, it's consider an assult and you can go to jail or juvinile home and have a police record that will be your worse nightmare in the future, when you want to get a job or get in a good college, so simply don't do it.

Suicide is when someone who does not have copying skills, decides to take their life, when in reality is a temporary situation. Don't do it, because God commands "Thout shalt not kill"...l.that includes the self, if you do your situation now will be nothing in compare to where you will go and what  you will experience....so, don't do it.

Also, nobody want to be around someone who is negative, bad attitude, volitile or potentially violent, so treat your friends with the respect that you want to be treated with.
Do onto others as others will do on to you.

You seem to be intelligent and hope to better your life. You can be anything you want in life, so surround yourself with a good environment and good people and your will do just fine.

Good luck, stay in school, stay away from the negative, love yourself and your going to be alright.... p.s. make sure to respect your parents if you want your life to be easier....Judy