I want to die.

[Powdrman8]

I'm such a horrible kid. I'm so ****** up in every way. I really just want to die...  And I don't have anyone. You mean I guess I have my parents and they love me but I'm just so ****** up I don't  deserve their love. I just wanna die so they don't have to deal with me.... Why am I even typing this? The FBI is probably going to send child protective services on me or some crap... I don't want that.... I'm paranoid... Sigh....

[ku111]

Could it be some anxiety?  All I know is there are many people who make mistakes and do bad things but the great thing about life is we can change them.  There are lots of people who do bad things but come out pretty great people.  Only you can make the decision to change some of your choices.  Be who you want to be.  Be something and do things that make you proud of yourself.  Goodluck!  

[Powdrman8]

Ok... I feel kind of better today... Though I Only slept 4 hours :(

Why am I messed up? I have bad habits, and I've done ****** up stuff... I'm physically messed up too... My knee keeps doing this thing.... And it is very painfull. I used to be active but not now with this knee that's probably screwed.

And worst of all I have had chest pain and short breath for over a month now. It's anoyying and debilitating.... All I know is that it's not asthma.

And then on top of that I've only been getting more stress piled on top of me, I can't take it anymore.

[ku111]

I can't think of anything so bad that you would want to end your life.  You say you are messed up.  Do you know why you think this?  I understand not being able to say on here but sometimes we are harder on ourselves than we need to be.  We expect more from ourselves.  We all have made mistakes when we were young.  It is what you do to change it.  Have you told your parents how depressed you are?  Please do.  As a parent, I would want to know so that I could offer you some guidance.  There is no greater pain to a parent than to not have their child.  Let them help you.  We are here too if you need help sorting things out before talking to them.  You have a lot to offer the world whether you believe it or not.  Keep talking to us and we will prove it!lol  Let me know how I can help.  I will sure try-that's a promise!

[Powdrman8]

Wow I really think I am legitly depressed! I just checked my weight and I lost 10 pounds in the past week?! Is that even possible?