help me stop.please.?!

[MYblackDAHLIA93]

I am a 15 year old highschool student. i guess you could say that i deal with the "everyday teen" problems. but i have one other problem, i cut. i have been cutting for a year now and every time i pull out the razor i just want the cuts to get deeper and deeper. i recently started cutting vertically in the hopes of bleeding to death over night. no such luck! everyone i know thinks that i suffer from bipolar disorder and depression. what can i do to help me stop cutting?

is there any way i can help myself without telling my parents my problem?

[April2]

You do need to tell your parents and get some counseling for this. As you're starting to find out, cutting can and will become addictive if it's continued. There is help and you can overcome this. I suggest finding a counselor who uses CBT or DBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Dialectical Behavioral Therapy). This will teach you better coping skills to choose when your emotions get out of hand so that you don't have to hurt yourself. Please get help or this will only get worse. There is hope. My daughter did this too, for a few years but with a lot of love, prayers and counseling she has overcome this. I wish you well.
God bless,
April

[Judy246]

also...if you want to talk privately, please e-mail me.  Your going to be ok...one day at a time...Judy

[Judy246]

You have to look within yourself to "Why?" you are behaving in such a self distructive manner. Look at  your home and school environment, friends, the "self". There is something in your life that is affecting you so badly that you have to turn to distructive behavior. You are 15yrs old, a difficult transitional age and you are learning to find your own way, but from experience, that is also the age where you really  have not developed all the necessary coping skills that come with life experience and how to deal with life's everyday problems.

What is bothering you?  Who has hurt you so deeply that you have turned to hurting yourself and if your family knew, it would hurt them too, because they love you...you are loved and they would not want to see anyone hurting you or you hurting yourself without wanting to step in and help.  It's time to step in and get you back on track.  

I'ts ok to tell your mom in private, she can help you unconditionally. Don't be afraid of who thinks what of you...talk with mom and she will know what to do.  I was in your same shoes, but I did something that I will regret for the rest of my life.  I attempted suicide over a boyfriend who left me for someone else.  I was devistated and  I did not know how to cope and did something very stupid. I became and angry person, confrontational and violent. I was so hurt that since I could hurt himk, I hurt myself.  I spent two weeks in the ICU with tubes coming out of my nose and mouth and what I put my family thru, I will always remember and now looking back, he was not worth it, but at the time, I just wanted to die.....never, ever let anyone have such control over your emotions.  There is a way out of this and the sooner you take the first step (tell an adult, mom, teacher, counselor and this dark period is only temporary, but you must help yourself and talk to an adult about what is hurting you so.....Judy

[Rach878]

Hello, i had the same problem, and i want you to hear my story. I started cutting when i was 12. I also formed an eating disorder around the same time. No one knew about these behaviors, and that was the way i wanted to keep it. When my friends noticed they told the school guidence counsler. And yes she told my mom. I was really upset at first. However the years progressed and things got worse. I was cutting every day, attempting suicide often. I was in and out of the hospital. Finally i was told that if i didn't stop hurting myself they were going to put me in a residental program. and i didn't care. The pain hurt so much that cutting made everything worth it. Finally my sophmore year in high school, i was out of school so many times, because i need stiches, and then i was always hospitalized after, that i was held back in the 10th grade. I thought my life was over. Since theni have been cutting a lot less. I was put on some antidepressents, and started going to therepy and it really helped. Was going through, my mom knowing i cut hard. Of course. At some points i couldn't stand myself for putting my mom through so much pain. But if i had never been told on and started getting the help i needed. I would be dead know. I would have died just another statistic. Is my life great know no. But whos is. I do still get depressed, and occassionally cut, but for the first time ever i feel that there is hope for me. And i owe all the people who helped me my life.

My point here is, i know things seem ****** right know. And i know telling your parents is probalby the last thing that you want to do, but if you really want to get bettter, you'll probably need help. And trust me, after hitting rock bottom, i'm finally discovering things can get better. So i believe that they can for you too,.

[XxpandaxX43]

im here if you need any thing

[XxpandaxX43]

go to your school concler i had the same problem its not worth it inastead of cuttin get a rubberband and use that it helps but i stoped everything

[margypops]

I think you could use some counselling help here and do suggest you have a word with your parents, maybe they will be more understanding than you think, How is school going ,have you friends and finding the work okay, do any of the firends have the same habit ?