Hi, I am 17 years old and I have had depression for a few months now. 3 months ago I started dieting and things went out of control, i became anorexic i starved myself and lost 10 kg, i dropped down to 44 kg. I talked to my school counselor who helped a bit nut not much really, i was so disquested by myself that i decided to snap out of it, I did. But that didn't last long after a week of being so happy with myself i started to gain weight dramatically, now 3 weeks later i gained 15 kg. Now, I am bulimic, i binge on food then induce vomiting, i wish i can go back to 44 kg. I hate my self so much, and i feel out of control, i want to kill myself. This is my senior year, I am the top of my class, and i have a lot of things to look up to supposedly, but I cant because im too stuck in all this. I want out of this, please please help me.