I don't want to feel like this anymore. Not a day go by anymore I don't think of suicide I've alread tried 4 times how can

[Bran_Bran]

How can I make sure I don't try again? How can I stop theses thoughts there embaresing and I don't want to picture someone with a bag ver their head first thing when I wake up anymore please help what can I do??? It's effecting my schooling to knees to concentrate on my math but all I canco concentrate on is how much I hate myself what can I do??? I am talking to my youth pastor and a pastor and my youth pastor said she is going to try and help me find professional help so what should I expect from that and what can I do to stop these thoughts from bombarding me every day??? I'm never free from them even when I am having a good time something inside of me is stumping yelling how much I hate myself and I just can't ignore it please help!!!!

[Bran_Bran]

I don't drink coffee it smells terrible and I can only imagine how and it tastes and I don't have alot of sugar because I'm trying to lose wreight!

I can't wait tell I can get some sort of treatment so I can feel joy again without being punished after with feeling extremely down!!!!

[compnet]

It will be great once you get treatment.

In the meantime, are you eating poorly?  I'd suggest you get in a lot of dark, leafy greens; fruits; beans; seafood; etc.  If your diet is affecting your mood, these changes will help some.  Cut down on soda, sugar, empty foods, junk food, coffee, etc.

[greendayscool]

well if you get some kind of therapist all that they are going to do is probably ask a lot of questions to try to get to the reason of why the suicidal thoughts are developing... its a good thing that you went to someone you can trust, because i have had many thoughts about doing it but i remembered of the few people who loved me and how other kids and teens are treated a lot worse and are absolutely neglected by everyone around them. i hope you get the kind of help your looking for... best of luck to you. :)

[johndoe880]

Please read the message that I sent you in your other post.  Please don't hurt yourself.  Trust me - everything will be okay.  It's good that you talked to your pastor.  Please keep your chin up.