Hi everyone, I've spent the last while scrolling through the message boards, and I've learned some things. However, I have come up with a few things that have made me feel unsure, and I know that doesn't help the situation.
Background: Almost 6 years ago, I started to have some difficulties I'd never had. Insomnia, cycstic acne, a "nervous stomach", fatigue and terrible weakness, extreme muscle tightness in my neck. I went to the doctor and he told me I was stressed. This further complicated things because I didn't "feel" stressed. I went on to lose almost 40 pounds, and no matter how much I slept, it was never enough. My anxiousness increased over how I was feeling. I went back to the doctor (a different one in my small town clinic) and he said my thyroid felt enlarged and that he was going to order some bloodwork and an ultrasound. He ordered a TSH and FT4. Here is how those came back: TSH - 1.93 (range .27-4.2) and FT4 - 1.6 (range .9-1.7). Because they were in range, he cancelled the ultrasound. He told me that everything I was telling him screamed "thyroid" but he couldn't figure it out and wanted me to go to Mayo Clinic. I didn't go.
Over time, I went on to 2 different doctors who continually checked my thyroid. About 9 months later, I got the following lab results: TSH - .006 (range .45-4.5), T4 - 15.5 (range 4.5-12), T3 Uptake - 32 (range 24-39) and FT4 - 2.62 (range .82-1.77). This would indicate hyperthyroidism, I believe. Nothing was done.
7 moths later, I got these results: TSH - 14.070 (.45-4.5), T4 - 6.3 (range 4.5-12), T3 Uptake - 20 (range 24-39), FT4 - .70 (range .82-1.77). Now indicating hypothyroidism. Nothing was done.
A simple TSH at a health fair a year later showed 2.51, and a year after that my gynecologist checked TSH and it was 2.16. I don't have the ranges on those.
I picked myself up by the bootstraps and told myself I had to just get over it, but finally over Christmas this year, I couldn't take it any more and went back to the doctor. I absolutely freeze to death, I feel like I have no lifeblood, I get anxious, and just generally feel like an emotional wreck. They checked my labs and they called saying my TSH was 5.8 and I needed to start synthroid right away. I asked about the T4 and T3, and the nurse said they were in range, however I don't know the numbers. I was so relieved that someone was doing something! I started on 50mcg of synthroid and 3 weeks later, the insomnia was killing me and my heart rate was high. I called the clinic and a different doctor was in - he told me to cut the dose in half and get through the weekend and see how I felt. But he was really unhappy that no one had ever done an ultrasound or anything, and really wanted me to consider stopping the synthroid in preparation for an uptake scan. In fact, he was really troubled that no one had taken time to figure out WHY my thyroid was doing what I was doing. I am scheduled to have my first labs after starting synthroid here in a few weeks. I can't imagine much will be improved as I am taking the smallest dose there is since he had me cut the 50 in half. I still feel awful and ruminating over it all is not helping.
My mom had Graves, RAI, and now on synthroid - all just this year. My sister has been hypothyroid since she was 12 (she's 28), and my paternal grandmother had thyroid cancer.
So my questions are these: Is it unreasonable to assume my thyroid has been the problem all this time, even though I kept getting told in the beginning that my labs were normal? My biggest fear is being told that it's "mental illness". And secondly, I will do as this doctor asks, but can you give me reassurance that somehow there is a way to feel better eventually? I'm just terrified after reading some of the hysteria from others that there isn't help to be had. Thank you all so much!