Personality/Behavioral problems

[candace777]

I am really not sure where to start. I have what I believe to be stress induced hyperthyroidism. I know I have the hyperthyroid but I am just stating that I believe it to be caused by the last couple of years in my life. I mention this only because I am wondering if the behavioral problems I am now experiencing are going to go away after the stress goes away.. or if my brain is always going to be like this from now on. It started during BCT while in the military. I started having hot flashes, heart palpitations, rapid heart beating in the middle of the night and so on. Well it also turned out that I was pregnant. So I just thought it was pregnancy related. That was in 2006. After the pregnancy I had a period of time where my joints just went nuts with pain.. i was tested for rheumatoid arthritis and had a positive RA factor but was told that this did not necessarily mean i had it. the symptoms continued over the next several years in and out but with no real terribleness to them. In 2008 my home was flooded, we had no insurance.. i got a divorce.. found myself in a new .. violent relationship.. and after that period of devestation was finally over I found myself not eating for literally like 20 days. I drank water because I was scared I was dying, but I did not go to the doctor because i could not even walk around my house, I had no energy. I just crawled to the bathroom when i needed to go. I lost my job of course. I just couldn't do anything. Finally after a few months I was able to start going in public again. I got another job. But i didn't put back on the weight I lost and I never got my appetite back. Then the insomnia started and the head aches increased. That is basically where I have been since this all took place however I am now beginning to see behavioral problems.
I have seen a doctor. He diagnosed me and sent me to a specialist... who happens to be of no real value to anyone in the world but himself. I have taken myself into the ER several times from anxiety attacks. They give me a couple pills and tell me to see my doctor. Like i said my doctor has been of no value (the endo). He changes his mind everytime I see him. One minute he's saying my t3 and t4 are leveling out and so we should wait another month and then the next time he sees me he says i don't have a thyroid problem. So apparently the thyroid problem is not extremely bad but just bad enough that it is causing the tests to come up a little off. So the endo does not think it is serious enough to take his time and help me. I have gone for three days without sleep. I have the worst and most bizarre thoughts going through my head.. more of an ocd thing really. Just repetitiously going over events and agonizing over why i did things over and over. I can't make my brain shut down.  I have been clearly out of control within the last six months, way out of my normal boundaries.. i am way more sexual than i ever was.. i find myself saying things to men that i would never think of before.. i am constantly in a sexually aggressive state.. i know that sounds weird but its just not normal for me and im losing a lot of respect from ppl that no me and being unable to form new friendships because of the other extremes. Im just aggressive in every way. Im easily annoyed, if i think you are doing something you shouldnt and i don't know you im just very ok with telling you all about it. And sometimes im just way off anyhow about whats going on.. i think its actually becoming a paranoid thing. so ... my doctors are not helping me. I have asked for a transfer and they said the one i will see is in another town, apparently my endo is the only one here in the city i live. I can't afford to go to that other place, and i think im going crazy.  So all i want to know is.. if this was all stress induced and I am now having thyroid problems.. lets say the thyroid goes back to normal as the stress in my life does. Because there is no way to tell how much of this is actual thyroid and how much is just natural reaction to the stuff that has been happening. But im SURE that its very exaggerated because of the thyroid issues.. so lets say the thyroid goes away by itself.. will the behavioral problems go away?? I really think Im going crazy. I can't afford to do that because I have children to raise. The sleep is really causing it to be worse.. i can't sleep at night. for some reason thats when my heart starts beating really fast. Now it doesn't beat hard every night but im in a wakened state that i cant get out of every single night. I sleep when i can during the day, but i know this is unhealthy.

Anyhow. just needed to find out if anyone else is experiencing anything like this.

thanks in advance.

Candace-

[stella5349]

Reaching out to Anne can help you. She knows the area and may offer some short cuts.

[candace777]

They have sent all of my paperwork to denton. That is where im suppose to be seen next. But it really is a matter of not being able to afford to do it. I am a newly single mom of four kids. It's just a lot more difficult than hoppin in my car when I need to see the doc. So that's why Im trying to figure this out on my own as much as possible.

[magpieannie]

I live in Denton, Tx. Could you come this far or even to Dallas or Ft. Worth to see a new doctor?

[peggy64]

After reading some of your symptoms, it could also have some adrenal involvement going on as well. Usually when we have thyroid problems that are not dealt with and brought under control, in other words, goes untreated for a length of time, our adrenals try to compensate. This then causes a whole NEW set of problems to go along with the thryoid problems.

It just gets "funner and funner."

[stella5349]

Oh - sure sweetie.... Here let me post to her and have her pop on here. She maybe can help you with a doctor.

I'll take care of it..

In the future here are the steps.. Above you have an inbox and can compose or read messages. Look in the uppoer right corner of the forum page and see the word "inbox" as a hyperlink. click on that and it will bring you into provate messages...

Send a "test" message to me... See if I respond - then you know who to do it.. :)

Well help you dear - you'll get bac together real soon!

[candace777]

how do i do that on here? i just found this site and am still trying to get use to how it works.