Personality/Behavioral problems

[candace777]

I am really not sure where to start. I have what I believe to be stress induced hyperthyroidism. I know I have the hyperthyroid but I am just stating that I believe it to be caused by the last couple of years in my life. I mention this only because I am wondering if the behavioral problems I am now experiencing are going to go away after the stress goes away.. or if my brain is always going to be like this from now on. It started during BCT while in the military. I started having hot flashes, heart palpitations, rapid heart beating in the middle of the night and so on. Well it also turned out that I was pregnant. So I just thought it was pregnancy related. That was in 2006. After the pregnancy I had a period of time where my joints just went nuts with pain.. i was tested for rheumatoid arthritis and had a positive RA factor but was told that this did not necessarily mean i had it. the symptoms continued over the next several years in and out but with no real terribleness to them. In 2008 my home was flooded, we had no insurance.. i got a divorce.. found myself in a new .. violent relationship.. and after that period of devestation was finally over I found myself not eating for literally like 20 days. I drank water because I was scared I was dying, but I did not go to the doctor because i could not even walk around my house, I had no energy. I just crawled to the bathroom when i needed to go. I lost my job of course. I just couldn't do anything. Finally after a few months I was able to start going in public again. I got another job. But i didn't put back on the weight I lost and I never got my appetite back. Then the insomnia started and the head aches increased. That is basically where I have been since this all took place however I am now beginning to see behavioral problems.
I have seen a doctor. He diagnosed me and sent me to a specialist... who happens to be of no real value to anyone in the world but himself. I have taken myself into the ER several times from anxiety attacks. They give me a couple pills and tell me to see my doctor. Like i said my doctor has been of no value (the endo). He changes his mind everytime I see him. One minute he's saying my t3 and t4 are leveling out and so we should wait another month and then the next time he sees me he says i don't have a thyroid problem. So apparently the thyroid problem is not extremely bad but just bad enough that it is causing the tests to come up a little off. So the endo does not think it is serious enough to take his time and help me. I have gone for three days without sleep. I have the worst and most bizarre thoughts going through my head.. more of an ocd thing really. Just repetitiously going over events and agonizing over why i did things over and over. I can't make my brain shut down.  I have been clearly out of control within the last six months, way out of my normal boundaries.. i am way more sexual than i ever was.. i find myself saying things to men that i would never think of before.. i am constantly in a sexually aggressive state.. i know that sounds weird but its just not normal for me and im losing a lot of respect from ppl that no me and being unable to form new friendships because of the other extremes. Im just aggressive in every way. Im easily annoyed, if i think you are doing something you shouldnt and i don't know you im just very ok with telling you all about it. And sometimes im just way off anyhow about whats going on.. i think its actually becoming a paranoid thing. so ... my doctors are not helping me. I have asked for a transfer and they said the one i will see is in another town, apparently my endo is the only one here in the city i live. I can't afford to go to that other place, and i think im going crazy.  So all i want to know is.. if this was all stress induced and I am now having thyroid problems.. lets say the thyroid goes back to normal as the stress in my life does. Because there is no way to tell how much of this is actual thyroid and how much is just natural reaction to the stuff that has been happening. But im SURE that its very exaggerated because of the thyroid issues.. so lets say the thyroid goes away by itself.. will the behavioral problems go away?? I really think Im going crazy. I can't afford to do that because I have children to raise. The sleep is really causing it to be worse.. i can't sleep at night. for some reason thats when my heart starts beating really fast. Now it doesn't beat hard every night but im in a wakened state that i cant get out of every single night. I sleep when i can during the day, but i know this is unhealthy.

Anyhow. just needed to find out if anyone else is experiencing anything like this.

thanks in advance.

Candace-

[stella5349]

email magpieannie for Texas information

[candace777]

im in wichita falls. I listed this in a previous text but it was deleted im assuming because i also listed the name of the doctor here and didn't have a nice term for him. so i will just say i live in wichita falls, tx. I have been transferred (at my own request because of the endo i was first givens incompetence) and all of my papers have been transferred to denton, tx.. which i don't have a clue of how i will work out financially to pull off on any regular basis.. but that's another matter entirely.. and necessary anyhow as the endo i saw here was apparently the only one in wichita falls. This appears to be the reason he doesnt have to be very good.. there are no other options.

Debbie, very excited to hear that you are feeling good about the new doc for your daughter. That feeling.. knowing the doctor is competent and has concern over her quality of life is not replaceable.
Im very happy for you both. Please keep me updated.

[candace777]

I agree entirely. Much easier said than done, but still working toward it. That is the real beast here. I really like the idea of thought reconstruction. Preemptive striking at its best.
I read a great book tonight called "When God whispers your name". I have not slept at all still the whole night and here it is 5:14 am... but the whole night i was absorbed in such a positive book that I could not help but to be in like condition. My mind couldn't be on a million things because I was forcing continual good thoughts down its little throat all night lol. So I feel peaceful. Tired but peaceful and that is definitely worth it.

I will also try this little method your talking about with the reaction to the environmental cues.. i know of certain places i go everyday (the gym i work out at are all friends with the bad relationship person and its very stressful- this is also where i am most aggressive.. but i can't leave because its the only mma gym i can go to [i paid for a year and a half up front].. and im just not going to allow events to shape where and when i will go where i want to go) So i need to do some constructive healing and positive reinforcement for the time i spend at this place. ..
very good.
Thank you very much.
Candace-

[stella5349]

yes Candace. The iodine injection can be hard on us.

You need to start from scratch and get a better doctor to zero in on your thyroid and adrenals...

Where are you located? - Maybe I can help you find someone for a different course of treatment.

[debbie0413]

I think you have really good analytical abilities, but you have a really complex set of symptoms.  I would suggest that you cut and paste your most recent long post on the ask-a-doctor forum area.  I really don't have experience with this forum, but I'm guessing a physician can at least give you specific questions you should be asking your new endo. doc.

I just took my daughter into the new thyroid doc today.  I was impressed with the depth of tests and scans she wants my daughter to take.  My daughter isn't really buying into it yet, but if the new doc is on target I guess the new thyroid meds and diet adjustments should help my daughter start feeling a little better in 3-4 days!  

Keep asking questions, keep researching, and keep praying...

[candace777]

OK. something i have thought then as a possible antagonist to this whole situation. When the fam pract initially told me he thought I may have a pituitary tumor they suggested getting a scan of my brain done. To do the scan they used an iodine injection in my blood as a visual aid on the monitor. Could this iodine treatment have caused me to go into a more severe hyper state? And knowing what we know about iodine and how sensitive the thyroid is to it why on earth would they be using this as part of a scan that millions of ppl have to get regularly? I feel like them using this without even informing me of its effects is a serious infringement of my rights unless I am mistaken about what was actually occurring. But I know the tech told me before hand that he was going to use an iodine solution so that the images would be visible on the monitor and that I would be able to taste something in the back of my mouth when it was injected.