I'm having trouble with a severe depression and acute paranoia. Sometimes I become sad for no apparent reason, or I find myself thinking/worrying about something without any real idea of what it is. I become scared for and of the people around and things around me, and I always have uncontrollable visions of others or myself getting hurt. I always hear noises, and I become incredibly uncomfortable in public situations. I am also prone to supreme anger almost out of nowhere, anger so violent that, in my high school years, I nearly committed suicide and still have the scars to prove it. When I'm around non-family, however, I become very...lax. Sort of like I can't become any happier than a weak smile but I'm not REALLY sad at the moment. In fact, even to me it seems like I'm a different person; my voice and the way I speak even change. I don't know what it is, but I want it to go away so I can live a happier life and stop letting the others around me worry. One thing I know is that I also have a dependency, an uncontrollable urge to accept, be accepted, and to help.