Yes of course its possible to carry a baby to term, but if you're thinking about suicide about the guilt, then having a baby isnt going to take away that guilt. Will u still feel the same and want to end your life? I would go and get some councelling before you think about trying for a child.
I have known many women who have more abortions than you have, who were successful in becoming pregnant and giving birth to healthy, beautiful babies. So, yes it is possible.
why suicide when you can avoid the guilt with a condom??!!!......