Has anyone else had the symptom of being unable to cry for most of their life? I was born into trauma and then surrounded by unusual traumas, and finally was in the middle of a life threatening trauma that disabled me, and has separated me from the world. Crying helps me feel relief. For decades, I could not cry. When I read the book of one expert, he finally mentioned that many people with PTSD lose the ability to cry. Then, I was able to do some therapy, and then I was able to cry to two people. An ex-husband and an ex-boyfriend. However, these people are exes for many reasons. THEY create trauma if I let them in, and they don't want to help me without either using me (one to live in my garage apt and have me take care of him) and the other likes to abuse people and plays brain games that are very damaging. So, I need to figure out how to cry by myself. It gets so bad that when I have a trigger and feel like crying, I think I will have a heart attack or stroke because I absolutely can not cry by myself the way, or as often, as I need to. Maybe a couple of times a year and I have to be almost suicidal and have a giant meltdown. I've tried watching sad movies. I've tried everything. The other night, I got into such a state, that I thought about pinching myself to see if that worked. Does anyone else have this problem where they can not cry on their own, or at all?