Hey everyone, I've been trying to post, my computer was messing up!!! I just really wanted to thank you guys so much for all of your support!! There are so many wonderful people on here!!! I did want to let everyone know, and I thank you's for this as well, my whole boyfriend issue, since he's read this site, he's been SOOOO much more supportive!! I think now that he's heard stories from other addicts, he understands what's going on more, you know what I mean!! So thank you for that!! Oh yea, Creek....I was reading through some of our old posts to one another, did you think I was saying he throws things in my face as if I were talking about objects? I was meaning verbally (when he said he'd take my daughter) Which honestly, I think I needed that, I think that's what helped me get my sh*t together, cause more then anything, I am afraid to lose her! And I am starting to feel really good about myself, my monitorings at work for the past 2 weeks have been at 100%, which means I was eligible for my bonus (and I made more money, I made $1.75 extra an hour for the hours that I have worked) YaY!!! I kept telling my b/f that I wanted the old me back, cause the old me got me in this **** in the first place!! So I am creating a new me, this addiction is only making me a stronger person, I am conquoring this thing! Yesterday, I joked and laughed with my man, we played with my daughter together, he is asking me for permission to play his video game now (he he) And he is giving me my personal space now, he said that he needed to find out what was going on with me, he always seems to know