you said you needed a miracle.
I wish that I could hold your hand, but I can't.  I will be waiting for you on the other side.
I wish that I could bear your pain, but I can't  You chose it, it chose you.  I can only walk beside you and feed you when your hungry and give you water when your thirsty.  
I wish that I could lock the door and keep the demons at bay but you have the key to lock.
You said you needed a miracle.  I believe you already have it.  You just have to open your heart.

Oneway I only have 2 things love and forgiveness.  
I'm so very deeply sorry for whatever wrongs I have committed, and greivances I have caused and pain I have inflicted I'm so deeply sorry.  I forgive myself so that I can be strong for you.
I love you.  I have so much, I have more than I need so take some of mine I give it to you freely.  I will love myself so that I can be strong for you.
I forgive any and everyone including myself that has inflicted pain, heartache and sadness.  I don't want to carry it anymore.  I give it up.  I release it. I will forgive to make myself strong for you.  
I'm so sorry, I love you, I forgive everything. ephelba