I came back one more time to see if things have changed here.  I am on day 7 now, I got about 5 hours of sleep last night which feels good.  I see people are trying to settle forum down, great.  I am a long time addict to many different things, alcohol was my first, it took me years to get out of that which I did through AA, then came gambling which also took me years to recover from through GA.  I know many people get turned off by 12 step programs and that is fine, it does work for some and not for others.  I learned a lot about addiction through these programs and two rehabs I had to go through for being an alcoholic.  Buy I never truly recover from my addictive mind and here I am now trying to recover from an addiction to pain medication and going through withdrawal.  I just want to tell everyone who is new or old to trying to recover from addiction, it is a process that never stops.  What I am saying is my opinion based on my personal experience and listening to the experience of many others seeking recovery from addictions.  I know for myself, will power has never worked, I need to stay involved with others in recovery for me to keep myself healthy.  (Cont)