Did you say you had no courage? That's not the way I read it. If you had no courage you would not be posting your problem. It takes a different kind of courage and a lot of it to admit all that you have. You put yourself down and I for one don't accept it. I see more than that in this post.  Admit it creek, that you are reaching out and just need a little boost to get your engine started again. STOP,beating yourself up. You are not any kind of loser or you wouldn't be here. We, all who care about you, are behind you 100%, so get off your duff, and get on the ball. This, by the way, goes for the rest of you as well. We will not accept anyone giving up. You are all stronger than that or you wouldn't be here. It takes a lot of inner strength to admit that you have a problem regardless of how it got started. So, as it has been said"Take the bull by the horns," and get on with it.
We know what it's like because we have also been there. So you stubbed your toe a little. or scraped your knee, so what? put a band-aid on it, get back up and keep going. There is a lot of love flowing here, Take hold of it and use it to help you along. Your success is ours as well. So keep the faith and keep on walking.
Mannie

Did you say you had no courage? That's not the way I read it. If you had no courage you would not be posting your problem. It takes a different kind of courage and a lot of it to admit all that you have. You put yourself down and I for one don't accept it. I see more than that in this post.  Admit it creek, that you are reaching out and just need a little boost to get your engine started again. STOP,beating yourself up. You are not any kind of loser or you wouldn't be here. We, all who care about you, are behind you 100%, so get off your duff, and get on the ball. This, by the way, goes for the rest of you as well. We will not accept anyone giving up. You are all stronger than that or you wouldn't be here. It takes a lot of inner strength to admit that you have a problem regardless of how it got started. So, as it has been said"Take the bull by the horns," and get on with it.
We know what it's like because we have also been there. So you stubbed your toe a little. or scraped your knee, so what? put a band-aid on it, get back up and keep going. There is a lot of love flowing here, Take hold of it and use it to help you along. Your success is ours as well. So keep the faith and keep on walking.
Mannie

Oops, looks like I hiccupped and posted twice.

Hey, I really appreciate your words.  You know how much regret having to tell the same dam story over and over.  I guess I feel like everyone must get sick of the "faker".   As if I could quit if I really tried, and many of you may feel I just don't try.  This is not a false statement.  I don't try sometimes.  But it is GREAT to get a kick in the butt.  That means someone cares about me, even when I don't like or care about myself.  Thank you.

You are right.  We are not a bunch of quitters and quitting is not an option.  We stay in the fight for as long as it lasts and then we help others who need us.   That is my dream.. to actually share my story of SUCCESS someday!!

Peace  and thanks!!!!!!!!!