panic attack could be just a thought. it hasn't been that long ,your doing amazing. it will stop .i beleive once you get used to the new you. congrats on day 6 and keeping buzy is definatly helping no rest for mommy's .
yea, i do know what you mean. today is day 4 of c/t (again...) for me. i actually did perfectly fine physically and mentally so far. but today after work, i just started romanticizing. thinking of all the good memories on pills. in particular i was thinking about a stop at chic filay we stopped at on our way to our vacation destination. it was afternoon and i had just popped a few pills about 20 or 30 minutes earlier and i rember sitting in the booth as that warm fuzzing feeling began to come over me... ahhhh
remember the creepy crawly feeling when it wore off. Hold that thought.
Hi! First I want to say that I am glad you didn't leave the forum - I didn't jump in previously but was thinking about you.
This is the second time I am stopping pills and the first time - wow - did I fly off the handle at certain things. It doesn't help that I have depression, for many years. I take meds for that and they help but nothing helped those feeling when someone just said the wrong thing and at the wrong time. I even started to not like people who were great friends...this is going to happen, especially when you are going through w/d. (my personal opionion - I am sure some people are fine but I think it was the combination of w/d and depression) It does pass - you have come so far (Woo Hoo) and these feeling will definitely lessen.
I agree with Hunter that you didn't leave the forum, I didn't post either but you were in my prayers. As for this attack in the grocery store, my personal opinion is that after being on the meds for so long your mind and body are going to take time to adjust. If you were taking oxycontin it stays in your system longer and maybe kept you going a little longer and the attack you felt was that wearing off. Or, it could just be your system saying what the **** are you doing to me!!! Either way you are doing amazing! Keep up the good work and don't forget to pat yourself on the back. Good luck
Peete
It's been so long since I remember that warm feeling taking a pill...I would always be on w/d's since I was only taking the prescribed about...I didn't get to feel that anymore...I just felt irrtable, and flu like systoms in the morning...And in a fuzz like I was out of it...And get this I was still in pain...
I believe my pills made it harder for me to be careful with my back...Not feeling what I was doing to it...And accidently injury and keep hurting becuase I couldn't feel what I was doing...
I am on day 1 and I am having on and off moments...But, I am really at rock bottom and despirate to get my life back...Sorry about the spelling I am too lazy right now to spell check...
Peete, that is a very good point about the oxy...not to mention, now that I think about it, I read that opiate w/d takes at least 5-7 days....day 6...hmmmm. Makes sense! I am so happy to be free from the pill prison, lol.
Thanks guys, that helped.
I feel like I have to re-learn everything, like how to live my life and do everything in a new body or something. You are all right and I shouldn't expect too much too soon :)