Broken But Hopeful/Thanks

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It's Day #2. Phew.

A big Thank You to all who helped me limp through the day yesterday. It felt as though my spirit was completely and totally destroyed. I'm ashamed of the shell of a person I've become.

But there's good news: I feel much better today than I did yesterday.

This morning I woke up at 3am after two measly hours of sleep. I tried everything to go back to sleep, but  in the end just got up and made coffee. Time to get on w/my life. When sleep is your only escape left, and you are denied THAT...Grrrrrrr! Oh well! 

 Have a lovely day everyone, and again: THANK YOU!

--Athena

lil_rab2005 · Answer

I'm so glad you feel better today.  Yes, sleep is prolly the worst thing about all this ****.  Not gettin any really makes you feel like ****... ugh!!! I'm here for ya girlie, if ya wanna chat.  Think I'm gonna go take the dog for a walk.  She's prolly sick of all the walks but maybe she isn't.  Hopefully not lol.  You have a wonderful day sweetie and try and stay positive.  Thinking of you, luvs ya lots, Lil.  :)

athena-8 · Answer

Thanks Girl!!!!!

XOXOXO

--Athena

avisg · Answer

athena, 
Yeah the not sleeping stuff really sucks badly .day 1, 2, 3, when I could not sleep I just got up as well it was hellish to lay the and try to sleep when I new it just was not going to come , The night before last was better ,last night sleep even better . My energy level is still low but that should come with time as well . You can make it thru this every day is just a bit better then the last .I dont think your broken ,just a bit battered and with time we all can heal .better days are coming .I am here for you ,
Avis

athena-8 · Answer

Thank You!!!

You sound great.

XOXO

--Athena

BJ1984 · Answer

would it help to take some Unisom of something???

So far I can sleep because I have a RX for muscle relaxant that puts me out--

That being said I know I dont want to get hooked on this RX-- but for 2-5 days I can see a problem. I can imagine taking it for fun because all it does is make me sleep

athena-8 · Answer

Thanks for the suggestion. BJ. 

For me it's important to stop what I have come to call "Reaching" for a pill, a drink, a litle "something" to fix me. This "Reaching" is so habitual that I recognize that I really need to change the way I behave in regards to my self-medicating, right now, in all areas, even OTC stuff. The more I "reach", the more likely I'll end up with a hydro or Oxy in my hand. Does this make sense? This is just the way it is for me. I'm strictly a recreational user with no chronic pain/health problems, so for now I can afford to curb my "Reaching".

Thanks though, I appreciate you taking the time to help. I'm going to try and rough it out.

--Athena

secretlady00 · Answer

Not sure if Athena and Athena8 are the same person so here goes again...I love my pills and I hate thinking about HIN so I downed 9-12 kolonpin and slept till 2pm.  Thank god I'm not working,  Thank you 4 your concern, Lisa

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