Hi, I am afraid I do not have any magical advice to get you through this, but I just felt the need to tell you that I can totally sympathize, as does probably everyone here.  Hopefully, someone will come on and have something helpful to share but I do care and I will be thinking of you.  If it is any consolation, you are definitely braver than me and further on the road to recovery - just hang in there so whatever suffering you have done so far will not be in vain.

Love, Cindy

It is very hard to taper and I applaud your effort.  I know many ppl here know more about it than me and can share countless success stories.  I was not able to taper - I just wasn't strong enough, or didn't believe I was.  Sadly, I didn't think c/t would work for me as well.  I went w/ Suboxone - which has been a lifesaver for me.  I'm telling you this only to say that however you do it, as long as you get there, you are a winner!!  Im not sure with the mix you are on if c/t is the best option and I would research it or talk to a dr. before I did it (alone).  Speaking of that, is there anyone there with you or that lives close to you that could help out.  I don't like the thought of anyone going through any part of this without help.  It's hard enough when somene is waiting on you hand and foot. (not that Im real sure what that is like either  LOL).  

I wish you all the best and I will be thinking of you through this difficult time.  If you need to talk, I am usually around or not far away.  Mostly a lurker, but will always pop out for those in need.  Take care of yourself and continue to give yourself Positive self talk!!  I can do it, I can do it, I can do it!!

You will!

Love, M