UGH, why'd i go back to work on the boat!?

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OOOOOOOOOOOOhhhh, boy!  I was doing so good, weening myself of  f the pills. Off the vicidin, the morphine, the kolonopin, etc...but, I went back to work on the damn boat and couldnt move.
I couldnt move without taking 60mg of morphine in the am and 2 7.5mg vics in the am as well......this is just the am...to move. I just got accepted to another school to get away from this job that kills my back, but I have been a first mate for 10 year and I cant leave until the end of july.  I am in so much pain but have been on these pills for so long, id rather deal with the pain then continue being addicted....Im only 22!!!!!! Im moving back home because I have some good internships lined up while I finish up school for the next year, but I know i gotta quit the boat. It hurts to bend over to type. Ughhhhhhh. Today I took 3000 mg of vicodin today, 60 mg of morphine and kolonopin and bacolfin. WTF am I supposed to do. I have to work for another 3 months.  I help me.

grievingwidow · Answer

Hi, gosh I wish I could help you, you are in such obvious misery.  I am so sorry.  You are taking some major stuff and I worry about you injecting it all.  Is there any way that you can check in to a rehab somewhere?  I would surely be afraid to go c/t, that's for sure.  And one thing you have to know - you cannot work on the boat anymore, that is a known fact.  I don't see how you can make it another three months even, do you?  Do you have any family at all that you can turn to for help?  Again, I wish I knew more to do to help you.  It is so late, there are only a few of us around, but please try to post again tomorrow morning or at least check this one - there are some very smart people here who I am sure can get you headed down the right road.  Hang in there......................surely to God things will be better soon.

Love, Cindy

road2recovery · Answer

that sound terrible, and escpecially if you have to work..i think you should try to get off when you get a better job ..But i want to tell you something about klonipin..I was on it for about 3 yrs..I was having trouble with one of my kids and my doctor put me on it, after 2 yrs i was on it up to 3 times at day at 1 mg.. then the last yr 2mg.. well i ended up in a rehab to get off of those things..i could not breath, i could not stop shaking, and it felt as though i was going to have a seizure at any time..It lasted 10 days...With meds from them to help..Please do not get off of this stuff by yourself..It is much much worst (for me) getting off of klonopin then anything else even smoking cigerettes..
Please remember that.
good luck 
you are young you can do it, god bless

UGH, why'd i go back to work on the boat!?

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