*** Why Are You Here?*****

Do you ever wonder.......Why you are here?  this is a group of people that are drawn to a message board that are clean, using, trying to get clean, but I'm talking about the regulars.......what draws us here other than to lend support? or is that the only reason.  People come and go like the wind, but we die-hards are drawn here for a reason.

I am here because I have come to adore many people I've never seen face-to-face and find it odd.  how does this happen.  I have true feelings for some people here and it kinda freaks me out a little.  Support is secondary. When I log in everyday; the first thing I look at is my inbox to see if one of my cyber-friends has a message for me.  I have learned so much from this forum and the support and love that people show here is true....at first I  looked at it like a game.....its so far from that.  When I was banned....I felt like I lost a handful of friends and I was truly hurt.  although I spoke to many via email......it just wasn't the same.  

This is a great place, and I miss a lot of people who have just disappeared.  When I look at my friends list....most of them are gone.  I often wonder where they are and how they are doing.......Is that weird?  I feel like deleting the one's that I haven't seen in over six months or so, but I can't do it, like I would be abandoning them......Is that weird?  I don't know......I am just very glad that I have found this forum. There are people here........as in real life.....that I have personality conflicts with, but so what?  Is that a crime?  I don't think so.

To those out there who know.......You are the Bomb in my book, and you know who you are.  Thank you for making my days lighter and brighter, and I hope I do the same for you.  I look forward to more people in the future.....through the bullsh!t.....the drama, the laughs, anger, and the tears.......

Thank you.......and no i am not drinking.........

P.S. When I said that lending support was secondary; I mean I look to my buddies first and whenever I get a note or message from a complete stranger thanking me for the laugh or making them feel better .....that is really what it's all about. Thank God for this social side, although I do my best to try to offer support on the community side..it gets a bit daunting and I need a break. I am only one person and I try to do my best to help everyone I can.  My heart is too far away from my brain, so I hope someone gets what I am saying.

Why are you here?

Luv to all,
Nauty..............

[confused456]

You made sense to me and no I do not think it is weird at all. I have found some amazing people here that I feel close to. I too look at my inbox and I get so happy when I have a message from certain friends and even disappointed if there isn't a message from certain friends!
I am here because I feel that it helps me remember why I want to stay off pills, I want to help anyone that I can, and because of the friends that I am close to!

[GoingToMakeIt]

Naughty, you are so right. I love to help people get clean, but it is so rewarding to have these friends from cyberspace. You girl are growing on me. I love the change in you.

[confused456]

GTMI......I was wondering what that funky growth coming from your rear area was!! LMAO

[allaboutmary]

Great post Nauty !   Not sure why I'm here. I guess it just gives me a sense of community and belonging.  It has been my new addiction. Not to mention all the great people here.  It feels a lot like family. Yeah, sometimes they **** ya off, but we seem to get over it and move on.(just like family)

[Jacqui805]

I came here in January feeling wicked bad with w/d ****...I came here looking for answers, and support.  I leaned heavily on everyone for a while, then started to be able to help a little myself.  All of it lead to some friendships and I would miss the he!! outta them if I wasn't here anymore.  I think the people here are also more human than on some others....I mean people here know what it's like not to be perfect and aren't afraid to talk about it...it's a bonding thing with me....we've all been through some stuff and it's natural to want to be with others who've shared similar experiences...makes ya feel kinda "normal"...whatever "normal" is.  

[NautyOne]

HAHAHAHAHHHAHA.......LMAO !!!

Nauty.......

I was going to tell him to get some Round Up for that........LMAO !

[Vicotram]

I was here for addiction now I just come to see if it will be a duck, or flag.

[confused456]

LMAO!!!

[confused456]

Vicotram!! LMAO.....that's a GREAT one!!!! hehehehehe

[avisg]

pretty soon the duck is going to end up wearing the flag ,hehehehe

[avisg]

Boy , I came here about 14 months ago when I was a day into detox ,I was terrified  .I had been taking alot more then I had in the past and I was afraid I was going to die .I was alone at the time  none of my family new .I was sick as all get out.I was welcomed with open arms by a whole lot of people that understood right where I was . A few of them are still here Lizzie, lisacamdave ,fl addict .There are many that have come and gone I miss them alot .There is one inperticular she was a day behind me in withdrawl (withdrawal).We leaned on each other she disappeared after about 30 days .I hope one of theese days she stops back in and lets us know how she is .Sometimes they do and other times they dont. I love my forum family you all mean alot to me ,we can all make it threw this with one and others help.:)

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

I came here looking for a little information and found a lot of information. And a lot of great people that seem to be dealing with similar issues as myself............cyber friends are great!!!

[GoingToMakeIt]

It is mini-mouse, not my big rear! lmao

[alienshadow]

Well I found this site by doing all the wrong things and yes I do regret it .i have learned we all make mistakes mine was I cheated on my wife and all of a sudden i got worried over HIV .Yes i broke down and told my wife the guilt was killing me we have 2 kids together ,i dont know what drove me to do such a thing but i did and i am ashamed for doing it Lucky for me my mistake made things stronger between me and my wife in some weird way. I got really down and i lost it i never want to be there again never
Yes i am hiv NEGATIVE the window period for that test is a pain its 3 months can you even imagine 3 months .Anyway when i got threw my ordeal I decided to stay and help others i have been here right at 9 months now WOW time flys I have made many friends and enemies LOL but by me staying I have gotton better educated and I feel I have helped many . Thats how i got here and stayed

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

Now that my life has changed I like this Social side. It hurts and frustrates me to read on the other some days. I can only take so much of the pain that it starts to drag me down. I don't mean that to sound bad in anyway because I have been there and I'm know better than anyone. I have to do what is best for me and what keeps me from feeling depressed or I might post something ugly to someone. And those people need support, guideance and understanding.  
I still come on here for the same reasons as most of you... Friends that I have made and friends that have been there for me.
I'm finally able to reconnect with my face to face freiends again and the last few months have been wonderful. I went into hiding for many months after w/ds and I was very depressed. I'm getting invited to parties and outtings again and I have found the ChiChi without pills is a pretty fun person. Add a few cosmos to that and you have yourself a REALLY REALLY fun ChiChi, LOL...
You guys have been there and know what it's like to go through w/ds and addiction. That is a bond that I share with many of you and that is what makes this a special place.
And Nauty, I'm not drinking right now either. I'm not becoming an alcoholic either. I do have a few on the weekends and some week nights,  but dam* It, I gave up pills, I given up meat (most of the time) candy, junk food, and mainly drink water. I have to do something!!! LOL
You guys are great and thank you for being my cyber friends:-)
E

[triedeverymed]

I'm new to this forum but I really dig it, there is something about having all kinds of crazy topics I love!
I'm like you, I have made many supportive friends in other forums. Some we speak on the phone everyday. It's really a neat thing. I know what you mean about your friends here, everyone is great! It's priceless to have friends who understand my addiction since face to face support was pretty non-existant!!
Erin

[confused456]

GTMI.....LOL....I thought that was a "Nauty Duck"