Unsure if help is available for me

[Beachgirl84]

I just turned 25 and been doing oxys for about a year and half now and doing norcos b4 and with them. I've tried several times to quit even went a week without cold turkey but the feeling of death never deceased, and I mean was laying in bed a full week wishing I was dead! Had I known the first day that someone showed me one what the reprecusions were I would have NEVER TOUCHED THOSE THINGS. I already know
I cannot do it with a doctors supervision with subutec or the patch but I was layed off and don't have health ins. I need help it absolutely kills me to keep this secret from my family and best friend. I want to get better.          

[flmagi]

Sorry about my typing above, my fingers don't seem to be working to well right now.

[flmagi]

If you go up to the top paragrapg and click on the blue words "Sunstance Abuse Addiction Community" it will take you over to the addiction site (this is the addiction social side), There's a lot more activity over on the addiction side and you'll get all the support you need there. All of us understand what you're going thru and have either been there or are going thru it now.
You can do this. Yes, you'll feel like you're dying for about a week, but you'll get htru it. There are also some things that can help. Go talk to everyone on the addiction side.
And Welcome to the forum!

[Beachgirl84]

Thank u for replying back to me. I didn't know it wouldve only been a few days later then I prob would have. It really gives me hope knowing there r ppl I can talk to that feels the same way bc I've never been addicted to anything and not being able to talk to my mom and best friend hurts so much. I just don't think I have the ability to do this without some sort of aid. Bc I've tried, so many times but never felt that each day going by was getting any better. I just don't have the funds for health ins right now so all I can do is live in this miserable life. It just kills me, literally. Thank u for your words.

[allaboutmary]

We can all relate here.  Too bad you didn't keep on going with the cold turkey, you were probably only a day or so away from feeling better.  Sorry you got layed off from work, but this could be a great opportunity to detox. As you know you will feel like **** for a week to 10 days.  Keep going though and things will get better.  I promise they will. It will take time to get your energy back , but hang in there.  Keep reading and posting on this site, it will help.