Vicodin Dreams ... ?

[Zurich42]

Hey gang - I've got a quick question...
As a recap, I am on my 4th day of sobriety w/no 'real' issues (I tapered from 10-12 Vicodin tablets a day all the way to 1/2 a Vicodin tablet and then on to 0 tablets).  Last night, I actually dremt of 'taking and abusing the Vicodin tablets' and woke up, 'what the hell?'.  I wasn't distraught, but a little concerned that I actually dremt of relapsing.  I don't know the subconscious mind well enough to 'guess' at what this means - but can tell you that if it's part of the withdrawal process it can be a little unnerving.  Don't worry - I'm more determined than ever...and am actually 'enjoying' the fogless days.  The insomnia - well, that's just the way my body works and I should be used to it after so many years.  I do know though that if I try to stick to a set schedule (i.e., WAKE UP and stay up at a specific time that I feel more rested that evening resulting in another hour or two of sleep before I start the WAKE UP and stay up process again).  

[1eagle]

Yeah - I feel like I went for years without dreaming....since I have been getting better so have my dreams...I don't recall a great many of them, haven't started writing them down when I wake up yet, thats one suggestion....but I am starting to remember a few, and the quality of sleep is improving a lot...definitely going to list both as bonuses!!

[GoingToMakeIt]

I haven't experienced those kind of dreams but I can't remember having so many vivid dreams as I have had this week. I look at it as a bonus. On the vic I don't remember much of anything, much less dreams. How about you? Did any of you find that even dreams were suppressed on these drugs?

[Jennip]

LOL, so I guess the dreams I have had are not the norm, but glad I could relate in some way.  At least Nogie knows what I'm talking about.  It is nice to be able to laugh about parts of this crazy ride...

[Zurich42]

Thanks for all your comments and making me feel 'normal' with the Vicodin dreams.  After re-reading the posts, I still can't stop laughing.

[1eagle]

I haven't had any of the major league (frisbee hydros, softball oxy's) dreams but I am glad to hear of them.... one can always use a chuckle going through this stuff......everybody stay strong ...

[OneTwo083075]

I lurk on this board and have only posted a few times, but I had to reply to your post.  I have had "drug dreams" so many times, and they always unnerve me.  One time, I dreamed about going to my grandmother's house and there were like 100 bottles of pills on her kitchen counter and I started taking all of them and shoving them in my pockets - she was just standing there staring at me!  I can't really remember any of the others, but they always involve finding pills somehow.  I haven't had a big Vicoden chase me down the street yet, but I am sure one day that could be me!  Congrats!!

[carr]

i have weird dreams like that all the time....the worst is during withdrawals...but it is par for the course....take care...and CONGRATS.

carrie

[lostlake]

Wow thats crazy. I am still putting along. Tappering. I had a little bottle of like 3 on my endstand. One night and I think I took them in my sleep not knowing. So now my wife keeps them locked up in a little safe. Its strange what we do in our sleep. Glad to hear your doing good Zurich. I am at 4 a day and need to level out I had some real bad nights. But I haft to tell my self that I was doing 8-10 a day for 4 years.

[nogie1717]

About a week after I quit Methadone, everyone in my dreams had pills for me- My dad, cousins, old dealers, you name it!  
Like Jennip, I had a dream where a buddy of mine and I scored a rock of Oxycontin.  By rock, I mean about the size of a softball and we were both taking bites and laughing and laughing.  That one was pretty outrageous.
The funniest thing, though, is that the dreams didn't make me crave.  Just that reptilian part of the brain wanting another joy ride!
Hang in there.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Show us all the power of what we are fighting. Good job staying clean. Dreams are not reality.

[Zurich42]

I'm sorry - but I can't stop laughing about the Vicodin the 'size of a frisbee' statement - or the pills chasing you.  I bet you woke up with, 'what the hell?' worse than I did.  
Thanks for the 'normal' comment, it reassures me that I'm doing the right thing - in the right order and that some things are just unexpected (like huge Vicodin pills chasing me...lol).  
I agree it only gets better.

[Jennip]

I have been clean for five months and I still have dreams.  I was taking 10-15 vikes a day also.  In fact the other night I had a dream that I had a vikodin the size of a frisbee and I was holding it with both hands and just taking bites out of it.  Another time I had a dream that my friends who I don't hang out with anymore actually put a gun to my head and made me take them.  I have also had dreams of huge vikodin pills chasing me down the street.  That was an intersting one.  

Just know that it is totally normal and you might have them for a while.  Congrats on your 4 days clean!  It only gets better, I promise.  

[Zurich42]

Interesting.  What was more interesting was I didn't have a craving - just 'remembrance of the dream'.  I was also a little 'mad at myself' for relapsing until I realized it was just a dream.  So, there I was - throwing that Catholic guilt on myself for no reason (gee, that's an understatement...).  
Thanks - as always - for the words of encouragement!!!

[IBKleen]

Crazy, isn't it? I have had drug dreams after years of being clean. It is a wake up call for sure.

They are just that....dreams.

You are doing great lady!!!!!!!! Keep it up.