Just inspiration

[vshiav]

I want to give all of you some inspiration.  I have been on prescribed meds for around 4 years.  Opiates/Fentanyl.  Finally, I decided to get off of them on Dec 13.  Not easy, nothing you ever want to do is easy.  Nothing ever comes without a little pain.  I went through hell for about three weeks.  The Holidays were tough, I admit it.  Withdrawal was tough, not going to lie to anyone.  My original pain is still with me by the minute.  

However, daily, it gets better. I think less and less about pills and patches.  I still have patches in the house, but hid them.  Only because I want to get rid of them properly.  

Every day is a challenge, but as I said, each day I think about pills less.  

You have to tell someone.  A spouse, a friend, your kids.  Everyone here knew I was in withdrawal. They left me alone when I needed that and helped me as a family when I needed that too.  Sometimes you just need to cry, and you will.  Trust me, I cried at night alone in bed, in the bath tub and when I was weak, I came here to read others struggles.  They sounded like me.  They were going through the same thing as me, someone, understood.  Even if I did not respond to everyone, you may have helped me in healing.  I hope, I can do that for someone too.

I won't tell you it is easy.  I just decided, I could not be a slave to pills any longer.  When I would run out, I was on my hands and knees looking under my bed with a flash light, hoping to find one I may have dropped.  I searched my car a thousand times, pockets, purses, closets.  I never found one.

I kept chocolate in the house.  I kept things I wanted to eat.  When on my pills I was constantly vomiting from nausea and lost thirty pounds in 6 months.

I took epson salt baths two and three times a day.  I sleep with a heating pad on my spine and neck because I am in constant pain.  

I am not going to say I am over the hump with this.  Because I am not.  I tried to focus on things and did the best I could do.

I made a poster with these words from a movie that is out now, and honestly, I read it and still read it every day all day.  I hope you do to.

"I AM UNBROKEN"   If I can TAKE it, I CAN MAKE IT!

shia

[vshiav]

Hang in there!!  You can do it Mkey!  Come here for support

[Mikey365]

I have taking metadone  for 15 years  I am finding the least little thing hard now 5 mts clean now any one advice pls

[vshiav]

Thanks!  I am a work in progress!

[scaredmamaneedshelp]

Thanks Shia. You are awesome. Great job on your sobriety.