26 hrs into detox

[katieblue994]

It has been 26 hrs since my last vicoden 7.5. I took maybe 5-6 a day max and more times than not only 4. Not to minimize at all. The withdrawals are such fatigue that its unbearable.. I keep moving and pray alot. By his stripes I am healed over and over again is my prayer. Now nobody in my family knows I have a problem because I am a grandmother who has it all together. I just need those pills to give me energy alot of times to do all the things expected of me. I feel overwhelmed by expectations of what has to be done daily. No one knows the thruth but me of what I endure however I am responsible for the addiction I created. I hope my next post says I am day 10..God Bless You All..

[Sfidel]

You have me inspired I'm starting today to get clean.

Tony

Keep me in your prayers.

Thanks

[IICAN]

I found this sight sometime back and yours was the first post I read when you first began your new life.  I was so inspired by you!  I also could so identify with you on many things.  I thought I was taking lortab to keep up with my family and grandkids.  I wanted to be thefunnest grandma ever and in order to do that I had to take lortab for pain, initially.  Then I knew I would have to withdraw and I kept putting it off because I didn't want to take the time to be "down" during w/d time.  This is day 2 for me.  So far so good.  I actually W/D last March or April, and stayed clean until June.  I have lower back pain that is pretty severe and my doctor offered me Lortab so I took it!  Dumb!  It wasn't his fault, He just wanted to help my pain. I can't take ibuprofen and I was hurting pretty bad but I wish I had never done it though.  My point is that this time so far has been easier so far.  Thank God sincerely.  I just was wondering how you are doing.  You just struck a chord with me and inspired me to get off once and for all too.  I was so sad because my grandbabies wanted to come over today and this is the first time I have ever not been able to care for them.  Hopefully it will be the last!

[kkeef]

Congratulations to you!  What a beautiful story.. I am on Day 8 and still having a reallyhard time - but you and everyone on here give me hope!!!

Thx Danny

[Danny111]

Congratulations on your clean time about 17 daysnow right?  I imagine you're feeling a lot better than you were a couple weeks ago.  I guess it's nearly fairly difficult for people who aren't in our shoes to understand why we did what we did.  

[katieblue994]

Good morning friends. Things are looking up for me and life is alot brighter. I still fight everyday but the urge goes away after an hour or so and returns with a vengence over and over. I am living one day at a time and but living pill free. I wish you all peace, joy and happiness and strength to fight the good fight. For people who don't understand what we go thru everyday let them say what they want to because I am sure as I am typing this they have their own demons of some sort. It is most likely lack of compassion and understanding and that would be a terrible disease in itself. Good luck my friends and God Bless You All.  Thank you all for your support as without it I would have been lost. I will still check in and support those who need encouragement. What a wonderful gift we give when when we lift up our fellow man.

[NoMore81410]

Hello sweet friend I stopped taking pills the same time you did! You are doing wonderful! So much better than me! I am dealing with new aches and pains along with absolutely no energy! I have been to NA meetings before for a friend and I never thought I would be the one having to go but I am seeking a christian one called "The Most Excellent Way". My husband does not think I need to go but he clearly does not understand because he has never been drunk or have to take pills at all in his lifetime. It's your preference on where to go hon but after care is really a good thing. You need to be surrounded by people who have already been through this so they can help you through it. Good luck my friend!

[cpdave]

I have to throw my 2cense in about after care it is so important and as u no by now our secrets keep us sick.I will say this people use to tell me that at meetings the most important person in the room is the new commer I never understood why but I do now the most impoetant thing in my life is my recovery and the second most important is helping others in there recovery because by helping others it helps me if that makes sense.You r doin great keep it up and please please please look at some sort of after care.Wow I never thought of all people I would sound like gnarly or sara or lol I guess I finally got it.lol

[wesinbama]

i have to agree with the advice to get aftercare. I know u dont want anyone to know, but i can tell u from experience that i could only do it for so long on my own.  Please try NA or AA. You have come to far to have a split second fleeting thought ruin this for you. The groups can make u stronger and learn to cope with the urges. Going to the first meeting is tough, but SO worth it. I physically and mentally feel better after i go. just keep an open mind.

[gnarly_1]

Hey Katie...so good to see you made it to the other side...most of this is behind you now its just the mental part you have to deal with now and it can be just as challenging...aftercare is the key to long term success so plug in somewhere it will help with the days ahead
good luck and God bless.....Gnarly  

[thekillerbeesx3]

Yeah!!! I'm soooo proud of you!!! I've cut back from about 10 10/650 a day (That I buy from a friend) to 3 or 4 a day!!! I hope after a week or so I can cut down again...I'm already going through the withdrawals just from that cut back so I don't think the others will be that bad...Since I already feel like crap!!!

[Jaybird30]

Congratulations!   I'm just in day 2 and am anxiously awaiting day 10!  I know by day ten I will be close to normal but feeling great!  Keep posting when you can cause people like you are an inspiration to us all!

[katieblue994]

Good morning my friends. Today is a good day. I feel pretty good. I have not used pills since August 14th. Things are still hectic in my life and somethings will never change but I have changed. Went to the doctor about my blood sugar and now take pills twice a day and injections twice a day and check blood sugar 3 times a day.. Spend most of the day poking myself.  Just wanted to leave a foot note about the pills. When you take them for years as I have they hide symptoms sometimes of underlying issues and because pain pills take away the pain knowing when something is wrong with you gets harder and goes undetected. I struggle everyday every minute sometimes..But I am free..Glory to God I am Free

[jstntime]

Hey Katie,

It sure is nice to read a post where you can see the progression from bad to good.

It sounds like you are in a good place mentally.  Isn't it nice to get a break from that desperate thinking???

Your post is very inspirational and has helped many, me included.

Thanks,

bob

[pattifan]

Hi Katie,

You're doing really well, and I'm so glad to hear you're feeling so much better.

You should be really proud of yourself, and it must feel good that you're free of the hold of those pills!

As for the other stressors in your life, talking to a close friend doesn't make them go away, but it really does help.

Take care

[katieblue994]

Its going to be a good week. I am stronger mentally and phys\ically today than yesterday. I feel so good. I still am restless at night but I don't care because I know my sleep will come back. Besides I do sleep 6 hours at a time and thats better than nothing. I still take my 2 excedrin pm at night. There are alot of stressors in my life right now and I am treating them the same way I am treating my addiction to pills. Give it to all to God.

[NoMore81410]

I am so glad you are doing good! You are fighting the good fight! We are free from the bondage of pills! When you start craving start praying! I am on day 8 myself of being free from those pills! Stay strong my friend we are on our way to the land of milk and honey!

[katieblue994]

Hello my friends. Pretty good day all in all. Slept better last night. Today have kept myself busy with little things. Laundry doesn't seem like a big chore even though I do it everyday. Today is o.k.

[pattifan]

Katie,

I'm really glad you're doing so well.

Everyone here is behind you.

Take care.

[katieblue994]

Well its 5:00pm and just watched Opray with storyline of addiction.and I'm still holding on. Feel better this afternoon (late afternoon got better after I showered) Cooking steaks and shrimp on the barbeque tonight. Today was an eye opener for me on addiction because the craving came back so strong it was unbelievable but I fought it and won. Now its on to a good evening with family..It's all still a secret struggle but its going along only because of your support.

[katieblue994]

Oprah is on right now with a show on addiction. I think it was meant for me today

[dominosarah]

Keep moving forward katie, you are doing great!!!       sara

[pattifan]

Hi if you feel up to going out to the shops today or tomorrow, Valerian and 5HTP can help with nervous feelings and with sleep. Not saying they're a cure, but every little bit of support can help.

You've done really well so far and hopefully things will start to get better for you tomorrow.

Even if you can't face going to the shops, the exercise and fresh air of a walk every day can help brighten things up. Hopefully exercise will also help in keeping your blood sugar down.
Are you eating OK? As you know,when your body's under stress your sugars can fluctuate up and down pretty wildly. I wouldn't like to think it was going low overnight.

Keep letting us know how you're getting on. There's a lot of support here for you.

Thinking of you

[laurel453]

hi katie

don't get discouraged by those feelings today... the mental part is a hard one....you are not going back to day one, you are going out of the tunnel but some days we feel better and others the mental symptoms take a toll on us... keep fighting, this too shall pass :)

[katieblue994]

This is the most miserable day and it is day 5 or 6. I felt so good after the first few days went by...Then last night began that nagging nervous feeling. Today I feel like I am at day one again. Craving to make a call to get the pills but fighting to not allow myself.  I keep running to this computer to say OMG. I am going to have a cup of coffee and mop a floor and trust me I don't want to do either one. I feel nervous, anxious and know what would make me feel better for a few minutes or a couple hours. I am going to try and clean my house thru this craving.....My blood sugar is elevated because I am a diabetic metor read 395..took my medication and now 3 hrs later its 220. Dr appt for that next week.