29 Days clean! i finally figured out how to log back in! lmao!

[Kelly98_]

So its been an interesting week for me! I'm feeling fine except I tried to do a back bend and landed on the top of my head! Total headache for 4 days! Still anxitey when half the time I don't notice but others do! I'm allowed to live with my kids now! Going to group counseling tomorrow! Kids counselor comes tonight! I feel like its all been so fast! I've been keeping busy! My 17 yr old lost her anger on me hitting me and my mother walks in thinking I'm attacking her so she attacked me and I pushed my way past both of them and walked out the door! Very proud of myself for that! My daughter thinks I should've used my head as a teenager like she does! Its all excuses! I let everyone calm down and spoke to my lexi and told her I get it she's hurting and the thing is we all have to get each other to move foward! No more past! Everyone tells me I have to be selfish to help me but in a way as a mother it isn't easy! I have a lot to fight for here! But I have a friend who's over a year clean that I'm able to vent to and they listen and hope their helping me which they r so its nice their not sugar coating anything and telling me things hit u hard sometimes b aware! I am thankfull cus boy did it! I'm sure it will again! Well 29 days today! Tomorrow 30 and I don't know how to get to meetings or where! I looked them up but there isn't much option! Okay bye for now!

[gnarly_1]

HI well congrats on 30 days clean get to a N/A meeting and get a 30 day key chain this is a process when mom or dad is the addict we find the whole family is sick consoling is a great idea but teens can be stoborn I rasied 5 of them 3 girls woosh glad that is over but back to us you will need a plan your family will be looking for any thing that looks like your using there will be a lack of trust...you will have to earn it the hard way...''do the next right thing with your decions'' the problem her is we think like addicts the best program I know is N/A if you can start going to meetings it will show your family your committed to getting and staying clean it will also give you a working plan of how to live life on lifes terms you never got to pick up again give it a try it has worked for years for me......Gnarly

[dirtydirk]

congrats on your month.....find that meeting and get your chip!!! Nowadays there plastic i think back in the 90's they had nice metal ones maybe they still do !!!  regardless glad your kids are back and keep fighting the fight