I'm not sure where I'm supposed to post, but I'm on day 5 of tapering my hydrocodene from 5-8 10mg/325 to 2 a day but I want completely off. Should I just stop or keep tapering as I first started out in 2004 using methadone and was on 120mgs a day for 9 months. I got off that cold turkey not the best idea... But after outpatient therapy and AA meetings I was ok. After a year I married in 2005 and for pregnant and didn't take a pill until my daughter was almost 3years old (as I was told I could never take a pain pill again a I am an addict.. Which I am). I had my gallbladder removed and took the pain meds they gave me and that was it, I was back..I ended up on Suboxone, as I could only go a few days through coming off pain pills. Then the Suboxone I was on for 2 years and I weened off that ( which was worse coming off anything). It took months and then I was clean for maybe 6 months, then a car wreck which messed up my back and neck and now back on the hydrocodene. It doesn't get me high, it's not even about the high anymore as that went a way a long time ago, it's I can't do my daily functioning without it, work, being a wife and mother. But I know it's removed me emotionally and effected my memory and not allowing me to be the Best mother I can be and I want off! My back and neck pain are an excuse and I just want to be me again. My head clear. I can't take off work or go in treatment. I have to continue my day to day responsibilities so I started last Thursday as I can veg out a little more on the weekend. Today is Monday, so it's been 5 days and I just want to crawl in a hole! And then how to I get off the two a day. I know suggestions is to slowly tapper but does it matter at this point? Should I just stop it all.. I don't know what to do?