3 Days off of Norco, just need some support

[sickofthesedamnpills]

I've been using vicodin and norco for over two years and recently would go through 100 pills in less than 7 days. 7.5/325 norco...I have tried to quit and wanted to taper but when i had them i had no will power. I would take the rx and then steal what i could to minimize the withdrawl till i could get my refill at 15 days. so for the past few months ive had withdrals every other week and i'm finally fed up. I went cold turkey 3 days ago. It has been horrible!!!! restless body, horible diarrahea, agitated, in a horrible fog, no energy, sweating, cant tell if im hot or cold, sleepy or awake and my mood changes by the minute. But today i felt something different. I had a horrible morning after sleeping foe maybe 3 hours last night and waking in immense pain everywhere. I felt the sun on my back and looked around and started to notice things i have not seen for the past two years. For a moment I could remember what it was like to actually be me. It gave me so much hope. I still feel spun but am conscious enough to realize that i am spun. I cannot wait to feel like me again. My wife looked at me last night and started to cry saying that the color had come back to my eyes again. That i had a pale look to my eyes like i had been dead and it had finally gone away...

Though I still have scary thoughts. I opened a little safe at work where i keep petty cash and used to have a few pills stashed and just looking into the safe not seeing the pills made me get the feeling of looking for them again. Not that I would but they have been such a part of my life it feels wierd to do things without them. I have spent sooo much time counting pills, calculating how long i had to hold on till my refill, how long i would be somewhere so how many pills did i need to sneak with me to make it, etc.....

I just want to be done with this and i am pissed off about how these f#$%## pills have taken over my life and me.....

They shoud change that damn warning from "these pills may be habit forming" to "you are going to feel like you will die if you ever want to stop!!!!!!!"

[pattifan]

Hi

You wont die from going cold turkey.

Do you have a doctor that you feel able to talk to about all this?

Your doctor can prescribe some medication that can make withdrawals gentler, and also refer you for support by a counsellor.

You might also like to look at the health pages on the right of the screen, particularly the Thomas Recipe and the Amino Acid Protocol.

Wishing you the very best of luck

[angelab32132]

hi i came across this forum and i been wanting to stop taking pain pills again  i been using for almost 2 years now and they have taken toll on my body i have tried cold turkey and it is hard within a few hours i was throwing up none stop for 3 hours diarrhea dizziness i ended up going into the hospital with my hubby i don't remember much from there my hubby did tell me my blood pressure was very low after my blood pressure came back up they released me when i got home that's when restless legs started could not sleep my hubby ended up getting me some pills cause i could not take it now 2 months later i am ready to do this again but i am very scared cause i don't want to go through that again it was the worse thing i go through i would rather die then feel that way again it was bad and that was only 6 hours of not having any pills i take vics percs narc about 14 a day i have a son 8 yrs old so i don't want to go into a detox place but also don't want to be put on more meds that i will have to withdraw from but i am very scared to withdraw again from pain pills has anyone ever died from going cold turkey

[sickofthesedamnpills]

Well the wedding went ok. Catholic ceremony was difficult to sit through, but I got a second wind and was able to make it to 11:30 at the reception before I crashed...The next week was impossible to sleep, falling asleep at 3am after taking 2 unisom. Seemed like i would have a great half a day and then feel weak, tired and depressed for 2 days. I'm feeling a little better now. I'm able to sleep without taking anything which is wonderful. Still having good and bad days though bad not quite so bad. I am actually having a good time at work almost buzzing by the time I go home. In a good way. :) but 10 hour day yesterday comming home to taking care of my son etc...Today I just feel over tired like I havent slept in 2 days, have a headache, feel agitated over nothing...I'm trying to rest a bit just getting ready to take my son to daycare, walk my dog and then get to work. Have a short day today just 1 to 8....I hope I keep feeling better...I am finally feeling more like my old self....I am finally unwound enough to chill and enjoy listening to some reggae...A few weeks ago that would have been impossible...lol!!!

[barbiesbff]

No posts for a week--How did the wedding go?  How are you doing?

[barbiesbff]

No posts for a week--How did the wedding go?  How are you doing?

[avisg]

Good job and yes you have to contact the pharmacy and cancel the RX they will because if they are available it alot harder to stay off.When you start feeling a little better look into recovery care  hang in there.

[sickofthesedamnpills]

Called the pharmacy and said they could not cancel a Rx but told him the situation and he put a message on my chart for a do not refill. It felt wierd calling the pharmacy i must say to think about how many times i had heard that message and ordered my refills. sick......the body withdrawls are improving alot. diarrahea is no longer just water, sorry or tmi, lol....yesterday i felt crazy, my mind was completely gone. i got lost twice just driving home from work and had to leave early again. Today im able to fake it a little better and im feeling a sence of clarity that i havent felt in a long time. I am taking unisom to help me sleep but actually felt a little rested this morning. not alot but also a feeling i dont remember the last time i felt. I hope it just keps getting better from here. I have to go to a looong wedding tonight so wish me luck, this is going to be hard. i just have to keep baby stepping.... :) and keep faith that it will continue to improve and i will eventually return............I still cant believe that i ever let this happen to me and for sooo long......

[gizzy32]

Right on man, cancelling those refills is an enormous step and it will make you feel good too. I know how hard it is to stop, it's downright scary, but addiction wants to keep us weak and in it's grip. **** that, life is too short.  You are going to see a lot of positive changes soon, just keep taking it one day at a time.  Congrats.

[sickofthesedamnpills]

ya i have to work for another 20 mins and then i'm going to call the pharmacy and see if they can kill my prescription for me. I also am throwing away the little lock pick set i made to get into storage and take pills between my refills.

Ya relapse is a major concern for me. I do have really easy acces to prety much anything I would want. The only thig i have going for me is that i am finally pissed off at this whole situation and if i had to go through the cycle of withdrawl and refill one more time i would probably have killed myself, not really but I had had it and could not take it anymore it WAS killing me.....

I'll look into the info you suggested too. Thank you......

I have my wife, a 2 year old son and a good career that I have been ignoring lately and it's time to spend my energy where it deserves to be...

[gizzy32]

Well done on those 3 days clean, your probably in the worst part of w/d's right now, but it will get better in a couple days. The w/d's are the easy part for us addicts tho, so I hope once you feel better physically, you look into some aftercare to STAY clean. There are options out there. Just wanted to give you some support and hope you keep reading and posting here, there is so much great advice and help. Is it possible to cancel those refills?

P.S. Look in the top right of this page under health pages and in there you will find the thomas recipe and amino acid protocal, it has helped many. Stay strong and feel better soon:) Your doing this, yaaaaaa.

[el_em_en_oh]

Congratulations on Day-3!!! One day at a time, Brother, one day at a time.

The urge & feelings & thoughts & cravings will subside in time. Keep posting here and spilling your beans. Talking about it helps a great deal.

Have you thought about attending 12-step meetings of any kind? I find that being around other addicts, and being able to talk to them face-to-face, helps a lot.

If 12-step isn't for you, then try some other type of support group(s). There are plenty out there, and if you're in CA, you're fortunate in that there are many more there than in some other parts of the country (for whatever reason).