HELP!!! I Called in a Refill Request

[mandee500]

I've been taking vics 5/500 for about a year now. I've been taking roughly 8-10 per day and if I would run out b4 my doc would refill I would buy some perks on the street. I've decided i HATE to be sooo dependent on something, especially something that makes me moody, depressed, and lazy. When I first started taking them I would get this 'superwoman high' that allowed me to clean the whole house play with my son and niece and be happy as could be. Over the last few months I started to take more than I was supposed to just to feel okay, no more highs. I detoxed a little a few weeks ago but two days into it I got my hands on a refill. I'm about 48hrs into detox again, heard the peak of withdrawals is at 72hrs, which scared the hell outta me. Yesterday was miserable, I couldn't get off the couch, I had nausea, I was freezing, and my whole body ached beyond belief. Today is much better, my only complaint is I'm still pretty lethargic, I have a minor headache, minor body aches  but get really dizzy everytime I stand up. If I really thought this was the worst and I was gonna continue to get better from here I might be able to withstand my desire to take more pills. The thought of getting worse again or more depressed at the 72hr peak scares me so much I called in a refill request. I'm pretty sure my doc will approve and I'll start all over again. Does anybody have any advice for me? Will my withdrawals get worse or is the worst behind me? How long until I feel how I did pre-addiction? Also, I'm convinced the dizziness is from my blood pressure skyrocketing because of the withdrawls, could this hurt me? I heard cold turkey can leave permanent damage, is this true? This is my first post, somebody please help. Thanks so much.

[worried878]

AND I MEANT GO FOR IT AS IN QUITTING...not picking up the refill...u have come too far

[worried878]

I used 10 mgs/ 8 a day for 3 years...well I did not start at that high of a dosage but that is where I ended...and yours will just go up and up as well....day 1 was my worst and got better each day....by day 4 i went to church and spent the day with my grandaughter..day 5 lazy but felt good...back to work on day 6...I am day 13 and have the flu so of course I do not feel great today but have been feeling very good....worked all day yesterday and had the energy to drive 45 min to the beach and take an hour walk with my best friend....I would go  ahead and go for it now...i wished i had

[cathy5841]

hi mandee, please dont get the refill.  what is 7 days o f being uncomfortable and miserable compared to the rest of your life.  compared every few weeks having to go throught short withdrawal times til you can get the next refill.  i am 65 days clean and i am so glad i didn't turn back.  it is not easy but it won't kill you, and when it is over and you have your life back..you are the winner.  there are somethings you can do to help with the process look for the thomas reciepe..lots of vitamins and things that will help you.  try to drink ensure or gatoradeor something similar.  take lots of hot baths they are wonderful.. i think i stayed in the tub for 4 days.  you can also use a heatin pad or electric blanket.  try to take short waks for excersise ( i know it is hard) but it helps to rid your body of the toxins.  and plese keep your mind occupied, if you are thinking of something else you can't think about pills.  try a good book or a funny movie.  and remeber this too shall pass!!!  please keep posting it really was my lifeline.  i think i became addicted to this site.  we all care and are here to support you in the rough times and rejoice with you in the victories.  and remeber to pray it works wonders.  be good to yourself during this time.  remeber this addiction did not happen over night and there is not a quick cure all, but you can overcome it you just gotta want it more than anything. i am here if you need me, you can pm if you wanna talk.
good luck to  you and i will be praying for you,.
cathy

[CGR76]

Welcome,
I dont think any perminant damage is done with the w\ds, except for some medications that are SSRIs or like xanax or tramadol can cause sizures if you quit the cold turky. But for the most part it only feels like you are gona die, but your not. You will be OK, and in 2-3 more days your problem with drugs will start to be a thing of the past. After that you just have to realize that you have an adictive personality and so it is best to stay away from narcotics and opiates. Your mind will try and trick u in to taking just one more dose, you will feel like its alright for you to have a couple or even a few. But what you must realize is that if you do, you will be right back where u started from. So just hang in there, your basically half way there.

Keep us up to date, and we will always be here.

P.S; drink lots of water or gaderaid. Take a multi-vitamen, try to eat. I used Excedran, tylonal, and Motrin 800 for the aches and pains. Also take hot baths, and just do what ever you can to keep your mind off of this. You will be done soon.

CGR

[anewbeginning]

Everyone is different in w/d's, but yes, the worst is usually days 3 & 4. The only permanent damage your going to have is if you continue taking the vicodin. I also thought that going c/t was dangerous until I found this forum & realized I was COMPLETELY wrong!! I went c/t of off 20 10/650's a day & of course I felt like ****, but you cant possibly expect it to be no big deal. I say DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT get the refill!!!!!!!!! SUCK IT UP & be done with this mess before you get in way over your head. You don't want these pills to keep controlling your life & eventually you will need more & more & more. Like you said, your not getting high anymore anyway. I feel sooooo much better that I am off of the pills & they are not controlling my life anymore. YOU CAN DO IT!!! Stay strong, good luck & keep posting!

[bmc1976]

The hardest part is making the decision that you want to be done with them. You sound like you are ready. Day 3 always seems to be the worst. After that, it is all downhill. For me, once day 5 hit, it was all downhill from there. The problem with vicodin is that your body builds a tolerance and you have to keep taking more and more to get that warm fuzzy feeling. It gets to the point to where you end up going through withdrawals a few times a month waiting for your next refill. Since you are already partly in to withdrawals you should continue doing so. In a few more days you will feel much better. It is not easy, but can be done. Cold turkey off of vicodin will not cause any damage. It is just very uncomfortable. Take advil for the headaches. Make sure you are drinking plenty of water and try to eat healthy. Try to muster up some energy and go on walks. I know it can be very hard, but you will feel so much better. Come on here for support and encourgement. There are so many wonderful people on here that will help you through this. You know you can't stay on these meds forever and one day will have to go through withdrawals. There is no better time than now! We are all here for you! You can do this!
Brian

[watermom]

Hi.....welcome....

There will be some people answering that have a lot more info than me.....but I can say a few things...

Everyone is different as far as w/d but usually (for me...I am day 9) day 2,3 and 4 were not easy.  BUT I read something by a poster here....and I wish I knew who it was to give due credit.....but they said "If you have the flu you just deal with it...there isn't anything you can do"....this is like the flu....and I think that is a great way to look at it.  It will pass.  The emotional part takes longer but from what everyone says it get's better and you feel so much more happier than when you were on pills.  

As far as going c/t and causing damage...I haven't heard that before...not from opiates. I do know that there are other drugs that are much harder to come off of and dangerous...like valium etc.  I think tramadol may be dangerous as well.....

Anyway....you have a choice to make....don't get the pills (which I know is hard to do) or if you do get them....taper (which is also hard to do)......If i were you I would throw away any prescriptions you have so you can't call them in.  That is what I did.  

Oh I am not sure about the dizziness....usually that is blood pressure related but it didn't happen to me.  GOODLUCK and post...it really helps.