4 days and feeling almost normal!

[Kendraerika]

Happy to not be controlled by a pill anymore! Still dreaming about them, except I felt disgust when they were offered to me. Have a bit more energy today. And my mental state it's better. Not so depressed. Overwhelmed by all the things I put off, changing my last name, doing something about my student loans, and TALKING TO MY BOSS! she took me off the schedual, which was nice because I had a funeral, and the wd, but need to go see if I have a job still. That's my plans for the day.And getting my daughter back on track with her potty training, which was my fault. Easier to use pull up then clean up a mess or take her to the br. Everything is looking up, I feel it can only get better. If youcan get past the 24-48 hour mark I think it's uphill from there.

[Kendraerika]

Yay! I finally went to talk to my boss... I doll have a job. Start back in a week and a half. Gives me time to get stronger. I also took my daughter to the park for about half an hour, and checked the mail for the 1st time in a month. I was gone only about an hour, but I'm exhausted. and sore. Hopefully I will get some sleep tonight. Felt sooo good to get out of the house. I'm am happy, like truly happy. I'm loving not being numb.

[Kendraerika]

Glad I could help in some way! Day 3 everything status getting better, a lil each day, but better. Hang in there! You don't want to do the first 48 over, its the worst.

[Psych_RN123]

U r inspiring!!  I have 9 norcos screaming my name right now & it's hard to avoid them. I'm 48 hours clean. My limbs weigh 80 lbs each, temperaturewise I'm hot inside & freezing outside, low lying head ache. I don't want to sit still yet I don't want to do anything either. I hope tomorrow will lend me energy I desperately need. Keep up the good work

[Innerstrength67]

Kendra, you are not rambling. You are sharing your feelings which addicts must do to have a chance at recovery. Also, sharing how you feel with another addict is truly powerful.
I am an acupuncturist and as Sarah suggested, it works wonders for migraines.
You are doing great!!!

[Tango1600C]

amazing

[Kendraerika]

Thank you wishful, and thats a good idea. I do NOT want to do these 5 days over again! Getting to day 5 seemed to take forever, but every day goes by faster, so I'm sure 2 weeks and a month will be here before I know it. I guess my husband of just over a month will have to continue taking the couch for a month! He likes it anyways, silly man. Still need to go talk to my boss. I hate today my man pays all the bills, my insurance, gas, smokes, cell phone. Everything for our daughter. It is his choice, as my starting home with the lil one saves on day care and leaves him to be able to work more. My job was just to get out if the house one day a week and pay a couple if bills myself. Maybe nit working for a bit would be good, especially since I'm pregnant and with the first I was working full time and going to college full time. Sorry, I telly ned my therapist to get back from her leave so u don't have to listen to me ramble.

[wishfulthinking57]

Kendra,

First off congrats on day 5!  For me the first 4 days were the worst when it came to the depression/lack of energy.  From my experience, I started getting energy back around the 2 week mark, since then it's only gotten better.  It helps to keep as busy as you can during the day and that will also help with the sleep.  My restless leg syndrome finally went away around the 1 month mark (not to discourage you, everyones body is different), but to help me up until that point I was drinking Sleepy Time tea before bed each night and 98% of the time it worked like a charm.

As far as your family members having their own prescriptions, I'm in that same boat.  Both my brother and father get 120 pills per month, hydro 10's (exactly what I was addicted to)....around day 5 my dad offered me one because I mentioned my back aching (from the w/d that he didn't know about) and honestly, my mind just went right back to how awful I felt the 4 days prior to it and I in NO way wanted to end up going back there.  So that's where my strength to say no came from.  Not sure if that can be the same story for you as everyone's mindset is different, but for me the reminder of the depression and just plain worthless feeling I felt for those first few days was enough for me to say no.  Hope you can too!

[jlannspr]

I have put off student loans, gotten behind on bills, and neglected a lot of ppl. My addiction soared when I divorced 3 months ago. Think of all the rewards u can give your children when ur sober. My best friend and I took them a lot; she wouldn't even text me back when I told her I was quitting. It'll be a life change, best of luck; take it hr by hr.

[Kendraerika]

I hardly slept at all last night. Restless leg syndrom like crazy. I think the runs are done though, thank goodness. Yesterday I spent alot if time playing with my daughter. Now it's day 5, and I'm hoping I get some more energy back, in the past, day 5 I was doing alot better, but that wasnt a planned detox, just couldn't get anything, then found some on day 5 in the evening. I'm hoping that if it comes around I wil be able to say no. this one guy owes me alot of pills. I will ask for the money. He is deep into his addiction, so wil be happy to not have to give them up. The stupid thing is, I had a prescription, and I borrowed some out. Got burned alot. Anyways, there are do many in my immediate family that are on pain pills.  I wonder how long I have to start away from my mom before I can have the strength to not ask for one? I visit my mom alot, but can't even talk to her in the phone, it drives me nuts because I caen tell when shes on one.

[Psychobillyqueen]

Congrats! Just remember your not out of the dark completely. You will still have your bad days. But also your awesome days! Just wait till you get a all natural endorphin high "high off life" it's a crazy feeling I got my first one at 14 days. Good luck keep it up! Drinks lots of water.

[Kendraerika]

I will definitely talk to her. Going to make an early appt (monthly prenatal appt) to check on baby, update my doc, and plan for the future. waiting for next week, hoping we can hear a heartbeat on the doppler thing, our maybe even get an ultrasound. Seeing baby will be a good motivation to keep it up, as I actually didn't think baby could make it thru this, orr maybe was to scared to hope. Anyways, it does make it hard for pain control when all you can have is tylenol and narcotics. A lot of hot showers, hot water bottles. Maybe check on the lidoderm patches. My head us clearer, yet i still ramble. I really need to socialize!

[dominosarah]

Talk with your doctor about your migraines.  Have you tried acupuncture?

[Kendraerika]

I have 6 1/2 months to figure it out, but sd far as the migraines, I worry that if I'm in that much pain I won't have self control and go in for a shot. Which being pregnant, I cannot have torodal, which is the non narcotic one I usually get for them.

[Kendraerika]

My question now, though, is what do you do for pain? I am prone to migraines, and eventually, this baby has to come out. The epidural did not work, and I was left with a spinal migraine for 7 days, which I was put on percocet for. I was given nubaine during labor, after the epidural did nothing. The epidural was a horrifying experience, and I'm not sure I could try it again. It was due to not enough experience for my doc, but I liver her and don't want to switch.

[Ann2497]

You are doing great!  Glad to hear it!